searching for the thrill of it, thrill of it...

→ LATELY

2011-12-04T01:16:00.000-08:00

Lately, lately, I haven't been in the best mood. You could say I've felt tired and just uncertain about things. And this "thing", I don't even know what it is.

Schools been forcing me to work my ass off, but the Thanksgiving break put me in a sluggish mood which I'm currently fighting off. I can't and won't fall short of my goal so I keep telling myself to go on...

I've been so caught up with thinking about how my life is going right now, and honestly, I'm feeling lonely. Not alone, but lonely. I have plenty of friends and family by my side, so I'm surrounded with great people. But I guess lonely, as in not having someone special for me to share my: everyday thoughts/feelings, not so humorous jokes, up and down emotions, and pointless stories with. It's been awhile since I've had a girlfriend and this feeling has came and gone, so this might be a temporary thought but it's bothering me enough to spill it all here. I don't believe I want a girlfriend, because I'd sound oh so desperate, but I do know I want to feel loved and cherished. I think those are the two things I haven't felt from the two girls I have been with. I haven't experienced a whole relationship to know what it feels like and am very much looking forward to it. I believe it has to do a lot with me, I'm really picky. But why wouldn't you be picky with the person you date? Maybe I'm overly picky. For now, I'd be glad if I could find someone who I can connect with...

I found something out about myself, no, I realized something about myself. I'm a very reserved and passive person in some sort. I've met a friend this year at Skyline, and he's showed me through his actions how easy going he was with people. Out of no where, he'd compliment a guy or spark a conversation with a girl. I think I'd be able to do this if it was an old lady, but I definitely couldn't grow a pair and start talking to a girl I thought was pretty. I'm just not capable of it, I tell people I'm shy, but maybe I'm not shy, I'm just so use to being reserved that I'm constantly not taking the chance to actually make something happen. The thought of failure comes to mind, rejection. Could I really handle it? So I just give up and say hell with it, why bother. That thought process is in my head, I could never ask a girl for her number, I could never dance with a girl at a club (despite my oh so talented dance skills, haha kidding...), I could never approach a girl... Something is wrong with me, I think I need to live life a little, but it's not as easy for me.

Adding onto these mindless thoughts, my body has been working against me this whole week making me feel crappier than usual. I got pimples, my lower back felt uneasy, I started to get a sore throat, a canker sore, one night my butt felt really sore, and most recently moving my neck around has caused pain in my chest and upper back. How amazing.

→ LONG HAUL

2011-11-20T19:58:00.000-08:00

And you start to see the people who you know undoubtedly will be right beside you in the next decade. Those who know that I, myself, is busy pursuing my goal to succeed, but willing to accept the fact that I won't be able to pay them attention. These people I want to thank for the support and understanding. Friendships really do come and go, but those that don't, are really the ones you'd like to thank once in awhile.

Growing up I'm starting to see the people who I want to keep and those who I want to keep my distance from. No disrespect but the fact that I don't prioritize partying or drugs anymore, I start to separate myself from people that might distract me from reaching my true potential. I understand at my age it's a period to party and have fun, but I always find myself thinking about the long run, the long haul, and what I want to achieve. These thoughts motivate me to keep pushing. I'm happy I have a drive, without determination and a goal, life wouldn't have any substance to it.

I constantly ask myself, what am I living for? What am I doing? I hate realizing that sometimes I'm answering myself with "I don't know". Very soon I will know my EXACT purpose and be content with life.

→ IF I DIE YOUNG

2011-11-08T00:42:00.000-08:00

(blog to come; studying as of now. Panicking, stressing, breathing. Last part was essential, let's see how tmrw goes)

→ PAST/PRESENT

2011-11-06T01:28:00.001-07:00

Coming out of highschool I had a goal that would set my standards high. I knew to meet this goal I'd have to work hard and try in school. My initial goal was to get into UCI, but now that I understand what I want to do, it has changed to SDSU.

Now I'm here studying in the AMs every night trying to get material down for Accounting and Precalc, as well as writing essays for English. I find myself focusing on school work more than anything right now, it's become a habit, a very good habit. I believe this habit is what it takes to succeed, to really buckle down and do work.

Before, when I was in high school I'd come home and simply waste my night with watching TV or the computer. Not once would I even have a thought for schoolwork since, I simply did not care. My mom would see this and tell me to do my homework, it became natural for me to tell her I didn't have any. As would any Asian parent say, she told me to "Study" I would grunt and just walk away. If I wouldn't do homework, I definitely was not going to study..

Things changed, a new me arrived. And now that I'm up every night studying, my mom tells me to work on it tomorrow or to sleep. It's ironic, well not ironic, it's just funny to see how things has changed and flipped. All I do is complain about how much work I have, and really, it's not thaaat much I'm sure compared to States/Universities, but it's enough to make me stressed.

I just hope all this pays off, and prepares me for the future.

Keep striving to what you believe is good for you, let nothing hinder your progress. Enjoy and progress in life.

→ DEATH

2011-10-23T01:16:00.000-07:00

Death. Death is something I am afraid of. Death I could not explain very much about. This topic actually came from a tumblr post about a teenage girl dying from a car accident. I searched her up and saw a couple YouTube videos of how awesome of a girl she was, though amateur videos, they had a good cause and very much touched the viewers.

I realize myself, I have not gone through the pain of knowing someone dearly to me passing away. Occasional thoughts of one of my family members leaving brings me to tears. The actual occurrence of this will devastate me and I'm just not sure how I will handle it. Death is inevitable and I believe one can not prepare for the emotional distraught it brings when a love one leaves. I fear the pain that comes along it and I can't imagine how broken down I'd be. I guess I've been blessed to not have someone close to me pass away, but when the time comes, what will I do? What is there to do?

This thought urges me to cherish the people I have around, but there's so much a person can do. There is never enough to say to a person, to make sure you have said all of the right last words. Death is so sudden, if you think about it, it can happen at any moment and that's the scary thing. Nobody can prevent death, in a sense, death controls us. My Christian side of me would say God takes care of anything, but at times, I question and I lose faith in what really is true. I just hope I don't lose complete faith in my Creator.

Especially in this generation, our world is filled with evil. There are people who are completely messed up in the head whom value nothing. These are the people who I fear, those who have no morals, no purpose, and who don't value life. To whoever may stumbled upon this place, I urge you to keep peace and love one another, do something nice, who knows what a smile, greeting, compliment can do....

"And I will fear no evil, For my God is with me, And if my God is with me,Whom then shall I fear? Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go, Through the calm and through the storm. Oh no, You never let go, In every high and every low. Oh no, You never let go ,Lord, You never let go of me"

Matt Redman - You Never Let Go

→ BOY MEETS WORLD

2011-10-08T01:11:00.000-07:00

Been watching Boy Meets World for the past couple weeks on YouTube and reliving such a great part of my childhood. Re-watching it, I'm now aware of the morals and values that are taught in almost every single episodes; whether it is friendship, respect, or simply to keep striving to be your absolute best. Each character plays a significant roll in the show: Mr. Fuhh fuhh FEENY not only is a teacher but a life mentor, Shawn being a trouble maker but still a genuine best friend, and Topanga an example of true love. The show relates ourselves to Cory, who is a average kid just like me and you, who goes through obstacles which knocks him down. But he is not alone, alongside Cory is his family and friends every step of the way. And can I just say? Cory's parents (especially the father) are examples of good parenting. I enjoy every bit of this show because it's just a classic, you enjoy and laugh, but you still realize how important school, friends, and life is. We don't see many shows in this generation that venture out to teach viewers how to respect people or go walk down the right path, it's all about ratings now. There's so much to say, but basically... I am in love with Boy Meets World!

→ WINDING DOWN

2011-09-25T17:13:00.000-07:00

Deadline for the TAG program is coming down, and these past few days, I've been finding a lot of information that isn't making my chances of transferring out likely...

Problem 1... Heard you have to fulfill all your major pre-reqs by Spring 2012; but in my case I have to take Calc 2 in the Summer 2012

Problem 2... I totaled at 26 credits by Summer 2011, but the requirement is 30. I didn't know Trig wasn't UC transferable. Although I am capable of getting 60 credits by the end of Spring 2012

Problem 3... There aren't much Business Administration majors for UC's, only Riverside and Irvine have this exact major, I'm now looking at Business Economics... But I really determined to get into UCI for Business Administration

Problem 4... Something I'm really not proud of, my UC transferable classes accumulative grade is a 2.96, sigh.

Problem 5... I'm hoping I can transfer out regularly if I'm not eligible for TAG, time to strive harder than ever.

And what frustrates me the most is that my counselor said everything would be fine, and that I'm doing just fine. I have an appointment with him in two days, and the application is due on the 30th. I hope everything is settled by my appointment so I can really see what my future holds. It's so hard to deal with this, I feel lost and confused, and I wish I wasn't...

This is my life, my future, and not having total assurance on something so important isn't the best feeling and is completely bothering me. What can I do, who can I turn to. Whoever I talk to won't solve my problems, so as of now, I'm counting on myself to get things done...

I want to breathe..

→ FRUSTRATION

2011-09-16T21:13:00.000-07:00

Here's my rant, prepare for my annoying complaints... To whoever reading, you can stop here.

Where to start, I guess, with what is occupying the majority of my life: School. My everyday routine consists of hours of school, and hours of school work which totals at A LOT OF hours.. I've zeroed in on my goals, and I'm determined to finish Skyline in exactly 2 years total. One big wall is stopping, and this "wall" is the transfer program (TAG) that pretty much guarantees me a spot in the UC I desire. BUT, the TAG program changed their rules which says a person can only tag onto one school (previous years, as many as you wanted) AND most of all, UCI excluded my major. So now I'm totally frustrated with what my future beholds, and things are just complicated.... The only thing I can do is, do even better in school so I can apply to UCI without tag and get in....

I became anti-social with focusing on my school work, but if you see my goals and where I'm headed, you should understand.

Other than school, nothings been up. Doing my own things here and there, but I'm satisfied. Simple person, living in a simple life. Not much to explain. Boring to you? Possibly, to me? Nope.

→ FOUR BROTHERS

2011-08-03T02:03:00.000-07:00

4 Brothers… Despite the different lives we live and the age difference, we still honestly care and love each other no matter what comes our way. The past was the best, but even though we aren’t together everyday like how it was before, the time we do spend with each other brings us back like nothing has changed. I love these guys so much, and they’ve been in my life for a majority of it. (Dfang since ‘98 / Steez since ‘01 / Midget since ‘05) The time, how long they’ve been there for me isn’t even something I’m proud of, it’s the impact that they’ve had on me.

These are my childhood buddies, and it’s gratifying to know it’s not merely that.. there is more to it, there are MORE memories to come.. Growing up, I was always the youngest and I would just remember admiring these brothers of mine. Sometimes for the wrong reason, but hey, they were cool to me. I remember being in the shoe hype with them, co jps, “jays” and going down to DT just for the heck of it. I remember just causing trouble during whatever fellowship or retreat we had, or to lounge around during those events excluding everyone else because we were simply having fun needing no interruptions. I remember going over to Steez house to play Counter Strike, awp map every 5 deaths. Then we all were in the same HS, me as a freshmen, stanley as a soph, donald as a junior, and erick who was hardly around as a senior. A whole family at school, I felt secured with them.

4Brothers <3

→ SELFLESS

2011-07-30T01:07:00.000-07:00

The last post actually sparked this next post. As the title says, "Selfless", I really enjoy this word. Why? Because it's such an amazing trait a person can have. I believe a person to be selfless is admirable, how does a person worry/think about things or people around them before themselves? Is it possible? I believe so but very hard to actually be. I don't think being selfless is an act, it's lifestyle, that's how you are. And if you think about it, who in your life is selfless? Are you selfless? I truly do not believe I am selfless, I believe I am selfish. In life it's human to want the best, to make money for yourself, have the best food in your plate, simply gratify your own self. But these people who are genuinely selfless, look out for other peoples need before their own, we need more of these people in this world.

If I can possibly attain this when I grow up, I believe it's an necessary quality when I have a family of my own. I hope to subconsciously look for my kid/wife/friends needs before mine, whether it be money, food, or time... I want to put my loved ones first.

To six people who truly I believe put other peoples need before others is my parents, my brother, Allan Tong, David Zhu, and Erick Chang. Some of the most important people in my life, are always thinking of others and just caring. I love you all...

→ POST SDC UPDATE

2011-07-29T00:52:00.000-07:00

Some ask me what am I doing lately? I just tell them "Man, I'm just chilling, sleeping in and whenever I get the chance to, I chill some more" These past few weeks after Day Camp, I thought I'd feel a little more relaxed but it doesn't seem to be the case when you're looking at midterms and papers to do for school every night/day. Basically I wake up to read or work on papers for class, then school itself, then to come home to a nice microwaved dinner.

I can not wait until the end of August 4th, that's if you couldn't guess the last day of night school and I have about 2 weeks to spend before the Fall 2011 semester starts. Not much of a summer, but I can't complain since I put it upon myself to transfer in one more year.

Planning a Santa Cruz trip with some friends, and hopefully this will be a time where I can truly breathe and enjoy what is in front of me. Good company and what I hope to be beautiful weather.

Who I definitely thinks deserves a mention, is my parents. I honestly don't show as much appreciation as they deserve.. My mom this summer has dealt with my easily irritated self, but never gave up or just stopped. She's prepared lunch and dinner for me basically every day of the summer and I barely see her. The time I do see her, she's heating up my food or I'm being a total brat and giving her attitude. Although I'm tired, it's easily forgotten that my parents also woke up at 7am to work 9 hours, so I think the whole world revolves around me. I just want to thank God for blessing me with such great, caring, selfless parents.

Thank you.

→ PAST MUSIC SET 5

2011-07-18T12:17:00.001-07:00

XV - When We're Done
Hoodie Allen - So Much Closer (feat. Rocky Busininess)

→ SOON TO END, ALL SMILES

2011-07-15T00:14:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the LAST day of 2011 Re:New Day Camp, and I really can't put into words how fast this camp went by. I'm really going to miss my cute kids, the fun-filled counselors, the great atmosphere, and most of all just being in a big family. It's funny, if you were a stranger walking into our day camp during worship, you'd see everyone go crazy for their group "GUMMIE BEARS! SKITTLES! AIRHEADS! STARBURSTS!" as if we were in a war or something. But totally opposite, we're all part of a family, a family where people truly care about each other. I think this is what I loved about SDC this year, I felt wanted, belonged, and just.... happy. You walk in tired as hell at 8am and everyone is there just sitting around doing morning devotion but, you have this feeling of, oh we're in this together, we're happy doing this for God and the kids.

The aura everyday is just magnificent, you see counselors in a rush to print out math worksheets, freaking out over the weather/activity, finding missing items just so everything can be PERFECT. You wonder, how can all this chaos be magnificent? Don't you see? All this panicking is to make things run smoothly for the kids, realizing that you have a group of counselors so highly devoted in their activities or classes trying to make the best out of things is wonderful. Being overwhelmed but succeeding in the end describes this camp very well. Things can be an utter mess in the beginning but sticking it through and seeing the wonderful smiles on our kids faces after a day in the park, or Chuck E Cheese, or just arts & craft is worth it.

It's sad for me to come to this realization this late in the camp, I wish I would have cherished my kids and counselors earlier.. but better late than never right? What opened up my eyes was the Counselor Swap day that put me in a position at Hope that helped me in the long run. I was put into a group called the Cheerios which were K-2nd as well, but couple things that differed was the counselors and the lack of discipline. Counselors lacked experience and discipline themselves, the kids were crazy at the wrong time. I guess it was just frustrating to see how.... let's see if I can put this nicely... nope! how.. BAD everything was going. It made me appreciate my kids, my counselors. When I saw them after in a meeting, I had so much to say, I wanted to hear so much about their day... It really opened up my eyes, they came up to me and said "RYAN! You have no idea how happy I am to see you" And... DAMN, it was from KB (a guy) and I just felt soo good! I don't know, I guess I'm just enjoying my group so much more after that day. It's a family for us, our own little family. We have group bonding on Saturday, and I can't wait to just summarize our experience. To just sit back and say "remember when..." "oh dude, when so and so did that!" It'll make me smile, BIG.

Not to get ahead of myself, but there still is Closing Ceremony tomorrow. And I'm so excited for it, it's definitely bittersweet since this is the time to say goodbye to your kids, as well as seeing an ending video... I hope to smile and tear, hug and get hugged, and just cherish what happened int he past 6 weeks and what is instored for the Gummies. I can't wait.

2011 Re:New Summer Day Camp, I'll miss everything about you..., you have been the highlight of my summer.

Loosely Photos:

→ SUMMER 2011

2011-07-08T00:16:00.000-07:00

Haven't updated this blog in awhile, I've wanted to a couple times but actually writing things up wasn't in my best interest. But anyways.. Summer's been really busy and tiring, not what a normal summer is described as, but I'm definitely enjoying it!

I've been spending my time doing a day camp at my church I've been doing my whole life and Summer school at Skyline which I wouldn't think I'd be doing ever, haha. Schedule for SDC is roughly 8-445, then night school 530-9ish. Working with kids from grades K to 2nd gets a little exhausting. Teaching math in the morning to activities in the afternoon I hardly have enough energy to stay awake in class. BUT, I'm able to wake up every morning (not necessarily on time ;]) and repeat this tiring process! Where this all comes from? I'm thanking God for it. For the opportunity to work with such great people and kids, and be able to help myself as well.

I've dedicated my time and effort to this 6 week camp, RE:NEW SDC. It's a ton of fun and the kids are something else... Having so many stories to tell, I couldn't even start. It'd bother me that I include one story but not the other, so I wont. Just know that it's amazing and filled with laughter and smiles every single day. The group of counselors that I work with everyday are great, I swear there isn't a dull lunch time with them. I would remember having such a terrible day or being in the worst mood and the smile and laugh produced by these young ones can flip my day around just like that. The kids! I have some trouble ones which I learned to patiently work with, some quiet ones which spawned to new crazy animals and just some CRAZILY CUTE ones. Nicknames are a must for me, "Chels-ski, Bri, Hails-ley" Seeing these kids everyday does NOT get old, it's the 5th week and if it was possible I wouldn't mind another month! This camp went by too quick, just like the saying "at a blink of an eye" I felt like I didn't grasp the opportunity as much as I wanted to.. Nevertheless, I can not speak bad about my past weeks involving the adorable, wild, cute Gummie Bears. Of course this road wasn't paved off to be perfect but it didn't stop us or me to keep striving to make the best camp for the kids. There was a time where I was mad at how things were going, how the kids were acting, how the counselors failed to do things and wanted to just stop. But how could I stop? When this is my job, to help these kids grow up to know God and become a good person. What kept me going were the kids, after all, it is for them. I'll miss these gummies...

Yet, not really.. I believe I myself have received a lot from this. It's brought me closer to a lot people at church that I've strayed away in the past years.. Re-attained old friendship while building a stronger foundation with others. Although I do not feel that my relationship with God has really changed for the better, I do know that God has a plan for me. May not be the right time, but it'll come. And from the retreat before SDC, I said I'll wait and not force anything. I believe God may be working through people with me, it's in His hands, so I won't stress.

Pictures, and an edit will be done soon! I'm tired, and gotta wake up at 7 tmrw, so this is my farewell! for now.

Aidan, the silent shy boy whom evolved!

Jonathan, the other twin! Such a cutie...

Oh you know, Jeslyn just posing!

On the carousel with Brandon.. OUMMMMMM!

Nathan... the kid who taught me patience!

Cutie Chloe!

→ GSW/M8 RANT

2011-06-13T22:02:00.001-07:00

Honestly, Mark Jackson coming in might not have been the best idea the Warriors could have made. I much rather see Lawrence Frank as the coach since he focuses on defense. Anyways, trade talks about M8 is storming Yahoo! headlines and I for one, despise it. I’m definitely a Monta lover/fan, he takes over the game and provides such a thorough game from jump shots, spectacular drive ins, steals, to down dirty hustle plays. I understand Monta takes bad shots at times and is an undersized two guard but you lose much more than that if he’s traded. I don’t see Ellis lacking defense, it’s size, he is an undersized two guard facing opponents such as Kobe and Dwade. Monta has matured into a leader and the team has embraced his leadership. The team chemistry is great and mixing the starting 5 could mess up the chem. I can’t imagine anyone else having the ball at crunch time and taking over the game besides Ellis, no one who we’re potentially looking at can take over the came like Monta.
I don’t believe the problem is Monta for the Warriors, it’s the 1. Coaching (which we sort of, hopefully, fixed) 2. The lack of a true center 3. A bench that can show up night in and night out. If we are able to pick up a decent center during this year’s draft (which doesn’t seem too likely) we could be a lot better. Couple weeks after the end of the season, I read an article on Biedrin’s building his confidence rather than basketball skills during the off season. Andris….. I had high hopes for a comeback last year, but he hasn’t shown up for me. If he can play like he did before his injury, we’d have a better shot at “something”.. Third, the bench: We need more depth in the rotation, I wouldn’t mind wiping off half the bench and picking up new players. I could live without a lot of them due to their lack of consistency and just straight up scrub-ness. I don’t wholesomely blame the bench players for their inconsistency, Keith Smart was blind and could not utilize his players. Our starters player 40+ minutes throughout the whole season when Smart could have played our bench. Smart put out line ups where no offense could possibly be ran, we looked bad. No disrespect, I think Smart was a great and genuine guy but not a great Head Coach.
With that said, I’m hoping for roster changes in our bench and the center position. The Iggy for Monta trade is fair, but I’m not a big fan of Iggy. His shot and offense isn’t consistent which means he will not be the primary guy to go to. His size and length will benefit us for defense but I much prefer Monta.
Excited for next season, let’s try to aim for playoffs… I just want the Warriors wearing the “WE BELIEVE” tee’s instead of Memphis.

→ RETREATING, RETREATED

2011-06-04T00:59:00.000-07:00

Past few days I've been in Lake Tahoe with a group of counselors from my church's day camp that I'll be working for during the summer. This retreat came to me as a surprise since I found out last minute that I'll be leaving for 3 days to a cabin. With that said, I normally enjoy retreats but don't necessarily get anything from them (which is my fault since I don't follow through). Going into this retreat, I had no expectations except a delicious buffet and to joke around like I normally do. So I guess you can say with little expectation, my expectations were met and exceeded, I had a blast. The atmosphere was amazing, everyone was smiling and enjoying their getaway as much as possible...... TOGETHER. The chemistry of each group and the whole staff seemed to be clicking in different ways such as being serious with work/God but being able to crack jokes together. I learned how to play Monopoly Deal and did 3am pranks which were the reasons of being sleep deprived.

I think more importantly were the conversations I had during this retreat. Yes, I laughed constantly but the conversations MADE the retreat for me. I contemplated a lot about my spiritual life and relationship with my Father. Struggling together, my brother Erick and I talked to each other about our perspectives on praying, reading the bible and temptations. Being so similar to each other, we shared similar outlooks and questions and felt the need to attain answers. Sadly we did not turn to God for answers, rather to someone who I feel is an angel sent by God to guide me and my life.... Allan. My mind was stuck on this question I had for myself which was "What happens when I doubt more than I trust?" And this question could possibly summarize my current spiritual life. I'm having more doubts then faith, it's not something I'm proud of but more of an obstacle I'm struggling with. I doubt myself with doing the "spiritual" ish as well as doubting the possibly of getting into heaven because of these such deeds. I came to Allan for answers and assistance, and our talk helped a lot.

With my lifestyle and values, I didn't feel guilty because of what Allan said. I asked him was it wrong to not do the "church stuff" and told him the fact that even if I tried I'd probably wouldn't be able to do it. He told me it's not wrong and that God is not looking for deeds instead the key to heaven's gate revolves around the genuine relationship you have with God. I then thought, well I do feel I have a real relationship with God but maybe it's not genuine since if it was, I'd be WANTING to read the word and praying daily. So that was my problem but I knew I wouldn't be doing the "church stuff" since I had no motivation and just wasn't my priority. Every time I read the Bible I feel like I know the material already since I've been in church my whole life being spoon fed bible verses, parables, and ideas. So due to the repetitive scene I got tired and bored, but Allan helped me realize that I haven't really experienced anything. Ultimately he didn't force me to read the Bible but instead advised me to just relax and allow the time to come for me to experience Him. I felt at ease knowing God does not totally push me away despite the lifestyle I live, rather waits on me and when the time comes He'll embrace me. I wondered why Allan told me to just live life instead of pushing me to do something about my spiritual life if I realized that something was wrong. I came to the conclusion that if I really want a relationship with God, I'd pursue it myself; but to force a relationship with Him it wouldn't be sincere nor genuine. With that said, I guess all I can say is I won't be forcing something that's not there, I'll simply wait until the time comes.

→ AT

2011-05-30T22:36:00.000-07:00

Approximately a week ago I received one of the most heart-warming emails I've ever got. I did not expect this at all but it was from one of the few people I can really call my best friend, Andrew. The email was great and addressed a lot of things that I took for granted like our friendship. He told be about his troubles and how glad he was to have me, and it was just amazing because it wasn't something I hear from him on the daily. I probably see him once every month or so but for him to still think we're as strong as before, helped ease my guilt for not really trying to keep up in his life. He told me I was his motivation for school, but in reality, he was my support/encouragement to do be studious and do well in school as we both told each other back in high school how hard we really must work to succeed. At this point in my life, I'm glad I have a friend I can really see being part of my wedding. I'm not quite sure how many people I can say this about; Yes I have a great group of friends but will they be there til my special day? I know he will. He reminded me... "Please know whatever you're pursuing in life, i'll be there as supportive motivation. I am content with our connection, definitely a brother like. No matter what we face in life, my intuitive way of looking at our relationship, simply; nothing will brake it. Thank you, man, thank you. " It's just amazing, I can't wait to see him every day of the summer.

→ REAL

2011-05-14T18:34:00.000-07:00

And when you thought you knew someone you called a "close friend" everything seems to be questioned when you find out the lies that have been told. Being so genuine to the person and thinking the same realness was reciprocated wasn't the case, in fact, the other person has actually been keeping away more things than you thought. I've been pretty selective on the people I've "chose" to be close with and to find out that a person I trusted and cared for has been telling me things that weren't necessarily true, sucks. I've always been real to people, I have no idea why a close friend would feel the need to keep secrets and say something else. A stranger I'd be more understanding of. I understand a person isn't going to spill their whole life to me, but why lie or give me half of what I give you. I didn't know being genuine was such a hard thing to do, I guess I was blessed with that trait. What I'm asking for is.. Just be real to me, I don't need to hear some excuse lie, just give it to me as it is...

→ CAN I LIVE?

2011-04-29T23:36:00.000-07:00

I can not wait until I'm able to transfer out of Skyline, more importantly, get out of the city. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love the city of San Francisco and I can not see myself living anywhere else but I just need a change in environment. This change I hope for, will help me experience the world and just live life and learn.

In San Francisco, it's lovely; all my friends are here, I'm familiar with places, and I have a loving family, but the problem is (as bad as it sounds) they care way too much. I wouldn't want them to care any less but I'm living under so many restrictions where I feel like I can't enjoy myself without the thought of my mom worrying or being mad if I come home late. And when I say late, it not even that late... I understand my past wasn't the best but I've been doing so much better in numerous areas in my life that I feel they should understand enough to let me just go out. I've stopped smoking, I've been more than on top of my education and spending time with the family is a routine. I'm overall a decent child. Can I live?

Honestly, I'm not doing anything wrong and I simply want to be with my friends. There's nothing wrong with that, being around friends is a retreat from the school stress that comes along with expectations my parent set. I focus on school enough, I need time to ease out and just relax. I've come to mature and see things in different perspective. I understand that I'm still young, there's bad people out there, and that she's still on the fence about the whole marijuana issue but I'm strong willed with a level head so I know better. I know what's good for me and what I can handle, I'm alright Mom. I'm smart and determined to be successful but now, I just need to live a little, that's all I'm asking for..

I'm such a family oriented person, where I eat dinner with my family every night and have weekend brunches. I joke around all day with them, and the bond is there since it's pretty much us 4 that we have. Why is it that you can't let me do my thing for one night? You know I'm still the same person, and will pick family over anything. I'm not going to turn bad, I will be the same respectful person I've grown up to be. You've raised me wonderfully, but I think it's time for you to let go and just see how I'll do in life. I'm not even asking you to let go of me completely, I just need a little room to breathe. Can I live?

→ CHECK OFF

2011-04-24T23:01:00.001-07:00

As the 2011 Spring Semester comes to an end, I'm stressing my a** off... I wasn't fully aware of how fast the semester came and gone, first day of class... then BAM, I'm thinking about Finals. My hands are going to be filled and breathing won't be as easy for the next month but I know for a fact I can do this. Research papers pose a problem for me, so I'm going to have to spend more time on them. With that and the million other assignments/tests I have, it feels that there is not sufficient time in a day... I can not wait until this is all over with, but summer won't be the easiest or chillest. I do hope it'll be filled with memories but my plans to do SDC and night summer school will occupy most of my time. Currently, I am overwhelmed with what I have ahead of me but as I check off this list, I hope my burden weighs less. This check off list isn't exaggerated nor is it all, just a jist of what I need to do. I'm looking forward to days where I can simply relax and lie down and breathe... I'm growing up, expectations and life seems to get more serious, so messing around isn't an option though I wish it was.

→ JAMIE ZHU

2011-04-20T19:24:00.000-07:00

Jamie is such a cutie, I finally got to meet her. Took awhile since both parties were busy but I was so happy that day! It was only Stanley with her and I got a call later from Karen that it was the first time it was just Stanley and Jamie. She got freaked out because he missed her call, I found that soooo funny/cute. I'm so proud of both of them.. All that happened in the relationship, and in the end they're both happy, it's amazing. And more importantly blessed with an adorable healthy baby. She makes the cutest noise, and when I stood her up that was when she started smiling A LOT! But I couldn't take a picture since I had to hold her! Sall yellow though.. I can't wait to see her grow up, I'm definitely going to try to help them out in whatever way I can. Freaking family. One Love.

→ 419

2011-04-19T19:18:00.000-07:00

you're consistent with your inconsistency..

→ PAST MUSIC SET 4

2011-04-18T23:33:00.000-07:00

Jim Jones - Perfect Day ft. Juelz Satana
Lil Wayne - Something You Forgot

Kid CuDi - Dat New New
J. Cole - Getaway

→ 04/11/11

2011-04-11T22:49:00.000-07:00

First day back from Spring Break I get overwhelmed with midterms, test, and research papers coming up faster than I thought.. Reading and studying is going to be a big part of me these next few weeks, and it's going to suck.

I had an appointment with my counselor Nate Navado @ 10:30, it was much needed... My head was filled with questions about school, the future, units, summer school, and scholarships. I procrastinated in scheduling this appointment but I'm glad I got to do it before it was too late. Anyways, I realized the likelihood of me transferring out in 2 years isn't too great. That was my goal but now it's disappointing.. I'm going to really try harder and pass/get all my classes in order to get out of Skyline asap. I might be able to get out in after Summer 2012, but that is if I'm still interested in the Business Management field.. I'm excited for next Fall's classes since I'll be close to finishing up my GE's and starting some of my major's pre-reqs.. Until then, I have to finish up what I have in front of me.

Worrying about the future is something I can't help but do, I'm not the best in anything so I worry about not succeeding... I want to live a life that is simple, I want a family, a nice simple house, 2 cars but without any problems and stress dealing with money. Money is the root of all evil, but it simply makes life easier... Well when you have it at least. I worry about not being able to get a decent job, I worry about not making enough money, I worry about not being able to support my future family, I worry about being in debt, I worry about not making my parents proud... Yes, money isn't everything, but it is something. And I would be fronting if I said it doesn't matter to me, in all honesty.. Money is something that I hate, but would love to have.

In this world we are working for satisfaction right? Or is it money... What are we getting an education for? In the end it's all about getting a good job for what? Money, money money. I feel like we are living for money, this is how our generation works. Everything around us is about money, riches, wealth, materialistic things... How can I not care about money? It's about happiness, and materialistic things is a big part of happiness, but what gets a nice car, a big house, brand name attire? It's money, money creates happiness... As bad as it seems, man, it's the truth. And without it, it's hard to be happy. This mindset I have is bad, I acknowledge that but if someone can teach me to believe in another outlook on happiness I'd be glad to listen. Our society is revolved around money, it's the center of attention, the more you have the better you seem to be in our world.

→ YES

2011-04-07T23:20:00.001-07:00

Finally pulled the trigger to get these!

→

2011-04-04T01:04:00.000-07:00

Honestly, how could you forget? It was an annual thing, and it was so important... to me at least. Questioning so much now.

→ APPRECIATION

2011-04-03T00:02:00.000-07:00

(picture from 09')

My brother Erick Chang, this amazing person is the only person who truly understands what's going on in my life right now. Our situation seems to be near identical and talking to him, everything seems to just click. Thank you for all the motivation texts, and all the talks.. I can always count on you, you are the person that I know will have my back and that really cares. Though I have never expressed these thoughts with you, I truly feel that you are a funny, wonderful, and thoughtful person. You've made things so much easier for me, and I'm glad we've gotten closer throughout the years we've known each other. I can't express the gratitude I have towards you my brother... Just, thank you.

Also, my "go to buddy"... I'm glad you're not annoyed with all my problems, thanks so much for being the person I can vent to. We've grown to know each other pretty darn well, and I hope you know I do cherish our friendship a lot. Although there are periodic breaks, I'm glad we both can update each other and feel like nothing happened. And all the jokes I make, I don't mean them! Kind of ish... =)

→ 3/31

2011-03-31T00:06:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to my lovely Mom! This women is someone I care for so much. I admit I do not appreciate and cherish as much as I should, but I know for a fact she knows I love her. I can say she's the most important person in my life, after all she did bring me into this world. Making her happy is something I will always try my best to do. She cares for me like no other and the way I respond when I'm irritated or mad haunts me at times. She deserves none of that, and at the same time she takes it all in and still loves me unconditionally. If anything happened to her, I'd be a complete wreck... But there's no need to bring such negative thoughts into this. If I find a girl even close to my mom, I'd be set. I hope in the near future I can make her more proud, I felt like I haven't lived up to her expectations.. And until that day, I will keep striving to make my mom happy. I guess.. I just.. wanted to say Happy Birthday! <3

→ GROWING APART (TO GET CLOSER)

2011-03-25T00:17:00.000-07:00

So to what’s important in my life, I apologize, I promise to stay faithful, focus and sanctify
We all get distracted; the question is would you bounce back, or bounce backwards.
Would you not know how to act, or take actions. It's just part of life
If your vision is impaired, you probably lose it all tonight

I’m tryin’ to vision life, how to get it right, but my visions so blurry
Trying to slow it down, faithful to the ground, but we’re always in a hurry, now
And if I could, make this world spin a little slower then I would
And we could grow a little closer, I think we’re getting a little closer, I think we’re getting closer...

- Kendrick Lamar ft. Jhene Aiko - Growing Apart (To Get Closer)

→ DEAR 3828,

2011-03-21T23:01:00.001-07:00

What are words, If you really don't mean them
When you say them, What are words
If they're only for good times, Then they don't
When it's love, Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

→ 5

2011-03-09T21:27:00.000-08:00

Presence of you being by my side felt so right, the timing was wrong, but not a mistake. "No" never came out of my mouth without a stutter in the mind, realization of missing out on your life I could not handle. Reached a peak of happiness I never experienced but glad it was with you by my side. Doubted the future but decided to live in the present, and us both could not comprehend the feelings and bond that came to be. Reminisced the past tearing at the thought of not having you by my side again, I did not want to miss an opportunity but my mind knew what was best. Talking to you til' morning was never regretted because I knew it was worth it, you're worth it. Our journey's end isn't in sight, so that's why I'm here waiting, because I know in the future you'll still be here by my side....

→ UPDATE

2011-03-05T14:06:00.000-08:00

Past weeks I've actually been genuinely happy, but at the same time it was like a roller coaster. Bittersweet life, but I'm fine with it. Built and invested on something that became so rich. There's so much to say but I don't feel the need to put it out here.

Other than that, school's been slow. Life's been chill. Music seems to keep me sane. And everything is just fine.

→ MOST BITTERSWEET WEEKEND EVER

2011-02-21T23:31:00.000-08:00

These past days have been amazing, I didn't want any of the nights to end. I simply wished there were more hours in a day just because of you. But it ended, things ended and that was the only bitter part. I feel like I gained the whole world this weekend, but also lost it in a matter of seconds. But am I mad, upset, bitter? Absolutely not, just sad. Catching up, reminiscing never gets old with you.. The bond we share is indescribable, and it is truly all God's blessing. You are a blessing, the way I smile towards you is something else. We're something else. My heart sinks or does SOMETHING, when I think about you leaving and being out of arms reach. You are not gone, you're just in the next chapter.. And I can't wait til I flipped to that page and simply cherish every word, every emotion, every feeling that is presented to me. We've grown up so much, and I'm glad it was in a sense together. This friendship will not change over time, I honestly do not think it is possible. But I am honestly happy that you are happy, I wouldn't want to see you any other way.. that is why the stop starts here, it's best for you. But until then..

Hold it down.

→ THIS

2011-02-03T23:09:00.001-08:00

I turn my phone on silent I need to get away
put on J Cole's warm up and let it play
I thank God for blessing me with life every day
and to my peoples who've gone we'll meet at heavens gate
I've been sellin' haze but I'm sure there's better ways
that I can get my pay I just need to get straight
Nothin' left to say now it's time for action
No more bullshit no more relaxin'

-Mac Miller

→ HMM

2011-02-01T00:35:00.000-08:00

Lately, lately... I honestly have not been doing much or going out. But I enjoy the stillness of being in my own world. I'm secluding myself from my friends, and to the people who actually care... I apologize. It's a phase I believe, I'm finding it more appealing to spend my night or day at the gym or at home watching basketball. It's not a productive cycle and I'm aware of it, but for now, it'll do. Catching up with friends or even keeping the friendship going passes my mind. I'm contradicting myself with my previous post about valuing friendships, don't get me wrong, I still do. I'm at fault when my actions don't justify my words but just bare with me...

You would think this absence from the world was due to school but that's not the case, school is school. Just trying to get with the flow of my classes and succeed. I'm actually not enjoying my classes as much as last semester due to the lack of consistency in good teachers Skyline offers.. But I will keep striving.

With all that said, I'm still myself. Just not acting like it.

→ SF.LOVE

2011-01-14T19:06:00.001-08:00

→ PAST MUSIC SET 3

2011-01-09T23:15:00.000-08:00

Eskabel - inDMix ft. Brian Angel
Sean Garrett ft. J. Cole - Feel Love
J. Cole - I'm Coming Home

→ M8

2011-01-06T14:28:00.000-08:00

Me being the huge Warriors fan I am, seeing this video actually hit my soft spot. Weird? Just kind of.. but it's true. Seeing the way Monta talks about the game and the way he shows his passion on/off the court is different from the first couple years he played in the NBA. Hell, even last year he wasn't like this!

He matured so much from his days of the "WE BELIEVE" era, and now his repertoire for the game is amazing. What I enjoy most is the fact that Monta realized it's not all about himself, and more about the team. He has became a leader this year, and I've seen different aspects of it and it's... just... great. From mending the relationship with Steph Curry, encouraging players that are struggling on court, and getting his team involved. He's not a kid in the league anymore, sure doesn't act or play like it. So he def deserves an All Star position. Monta Ellis, keep doing your thing. I see that bridge on your back, Warriors Nation Love.

→ TED WILLIAMS WITH A GOLDEN VOICE

2011-01-05T18:02:00.001-08:00

Great story, and I'm glad that he turned his life around from drugs and alcohol. Rumors are that he might work for the Cleveland Cavaliers in the Quick Loans arena. His attitude to be humble about his opportunity makes him so appealing to people. I believe he'll get many offers due to his grateful manner. From completely homeless to working with the NBA team Cleveland Cavaliers.

→ GROWTH

2011-01-04T00:00:00.000-08:00

Growth (n.) - the act or process, or a manner of growing; development; gradual increase.

Growth to me is vital in understanding the meaning and purpose of life. To ignorantly reject the challenges life has confronted you with and stay the same is similar to being "dead". I've been growing so much from my days in high school and I feel there's so much more to me than what meets the eye with me. To grow I believe the obstacles that pose problems need to be conquered, and on to the next wall to climb. Gaining experience and knowledge is ultimately a part of growing, and it just feels good to learn in life's trials.

→ HK

2011-01-03T01:24:00.000-08:00

I miss Hong Kong soo much.. The look and feel of Hong Kong is slipping my memory and I'm a bit upset with that. I've been there maybe 3 times my life but never really cherished what was in front of me. I'm dying to go back and greet my relatives.. Past years I visited they accepted me with open arms and with smiles. Cousins, Uncles, Aunts took days off work to show me around and cook me delicious meals while taking me into their home, I definitely did not show my gratitude enough for all that. I was so young and naive to not take advantage of my surroundings.. whether it was my family gatherings in the mornings (yumcha), shopping in new areas with my brother and Allan, or just simply the smell of the streets. There's so much I wish I can just take in all again.. More importantly, my grandma and grandpa. They're getting old, late 80s, and I actually want to make them happy. I talk to them here and there over the phone but my lack of Chinese skills makes communication difficult. I wish I had a better relationship with them but distance from them makes things hard. They're definitely a blessing in my life, they're just amazingly cute together. I just want to see their faces... I'm going to make a promise to get my grandpa a pair of Air Maxes and a scarf for my Grandma. Kind of getting that emotional feeling thinking about the.... not gonna finish that. I have the need to go back to Hong Kong and take so many pictures, of everything... every little thing that can possibly bring a smile to me. I can look back and say "hey, that was when... or, remember when..." I miss it. I miss the night life, the MTR, the outdoor goods, the different life and surroundings. It was great, it will be great again.

→ CLARA C

2011-01-02T15:46:00.000-08:00

Ohh.. Goodness.. She's so pretty, and talented! Drool.... Her voice is simply amazing.

→ SOMEBODY SPECIAL

2010-12-24T20:13:00.000-08:00

AM Kidd - Somebody Special

And you're the type of girl I'd like to give too much, till it's enough.
Please tell me I'm close to your type
Not cute but I know what's right
Not sweet but I know what's nice
and I could make you laugh and smile all night

→ CONTEMPLATE..

2010-12-19T23:38:00.000-08:00

"Life is a product of our decisions, not our conditions"

→ PURPOSE

2010-12-18T02:32:00.000-08:00

Purpose. I found myself pondering the question; what is my purpose in life? What are my values, and what did I really want out of things. I believe my purpose is to make my parents proud. What I do in life seems to be for them, to make them have a thought of "yup, that's my son" Doing good in school, being respectful, being on my best behavior is to keep my mom and dad smiling.. I don't have a problem with it, it's more of my motivation. I live for them, that's all I can offer back for all that they have done for me.

Another look on "purpose", I've been thinking about the things I do and ask if the things I do actually have purpose? Lately I don't feel content with life, somethig seems to be missing. And it's purpose, I want to achieve something and feel accomplishment or I want the feeling of real contentness. At this point in life, it's just not there. The feeling is dull, it's not that I'm bored of life but I feel like I need something genuine and real to come into my life..

→ RANT

2010-12-12T00:41:00.000-08:00

Be real, stop frontin', that'd be my advice. People being something they're not, pushing an image that's a false representation of what they really are. It's fake. Quit frontin'.. Be you, don't be loved for some fake project you up for people. How can you be satisfied with that? Don't put up a front to be cool, to be accepted, it's just pathetic.

.. Just my little rant, not saying I'm perfect, never nearly perfect. I just accept my nature. But seriously, stop acting.. Be yourself.

→ MMMMMMM

2010-12-07T01:12:00.000-08:00

Christmas is near, the signs? Freezing weather, frosty windows, and Christmas songs! This time of the year is an exception to turn on the radio. 96.5 KOIT, lite rock, less talk. Ooo... don't you love the voice of the lady that says that?

Winterbreak is coming up but before celebrating, we have to go through dreadful final exams.. Counting down the days left of school(6!!), I'm already thinking of the hopefully chill break! Starting off with a snowboarding trip to Tahoe is definitely going to put me in the mood for Christmas. Snow and good company! What more can I ask for?

Was thinking about going to a retreat, but I might just not be up for that. But I've been going to church a lot more, been spending time with Andrew and Allan and its definitely a pleasure. Thank God for this blessed life.

Workload has been the same, but I'm totally trying to finish off this semester strong. Can't wait to see my Spring classmates though, meeting new people is always fun. I'm kind of looking too ahead.. I tend to think a lot, A LOT.

→ KOBE AND LEBRON: MUTUAL RESPECT

2010-11-28T18:13:00.000-08:00

Oldie but a goodie, It's pretty hilarious actually.
1:22-1:31 "All that means is get the hell out the way" LOL

→ HAPPY THANKSGIVING

2010-11-25T01:14:00.001-08:00

I wish I could say Thanksgiving was just another day for me. Being thankful for the important people in our lives should not be done on this one particular day but on any given day. Life is so precious to waste, and I find myself trying to be the best I can be while affecting others. I'm always thinking what if a person leaves and my last impression made was a bad one? I'd have to live my life with that regret.

These past few month I've tried to better myself as a person, to cherish the people I care for the most. Not only to think it but to say and show it. It's definitely hard for me to straight up say to my close friends and family "I'm so happy you're in my life" but hey, I really am..

Life is precious, I'll say it again. Get a grip of it and just live life. As cliche as it sounds, tomorrow is not promised.

I've been blessed with a really good life, and I thank God for that. I'm really thankful for all my friends and family that's shaped me to the person I am today, thank you for being there for me. Not just the present people in my life, the ones in the past I cherish too. Experience is a big part in life and it is for us to move on, so whether it was struggles or laughs, it has helped me along the way.

thinking of the past, I'm glad you were a good chunk of my life..

→ REMEMBER ME

2010-11-20T13:36:00.001-08:00

This Friday must have been one of my most chillest, illest. I was working with 4 hours of sleep due to studying for midterms the night before but I felt I did good on it so that started my day off. After school I went to Costco to grab some food for Andrew and I, and headed to church. Got to see my father-figure Allan which is always a good thing. After I went to go ball up with KK and later Henry came along, I satisfied my craving of playing ball since I haven't played in such a long realizing my endurance is totally crap. After we headed to Outback Steak for Yan's birthday and the night just kept getting funner, everyone was just laughing and ish it was great.

After we went to watch Remember Me @ Yan's house, the movie was so cute, well at lease Emille De Ravin was. She had some nice eyes and a cute butt.... RAVIN' indeed! Haha the ending was a trip but the movie was pretty good overall.

→ 33

2010-11-18T19:35:00.000-08:00

Lupe Fiasco - Never Forget You ft. John Legend

"Moments of the past, comin’ back to find us
Not to relive them, just to remind us"

→ S. MESCUDI

2010-11-12T01:09:00.000-08:00

"walking with my mind
my heart will know the way"
-Kid Cudi

→ AWARENESS TEST

2010-11-11T14:30:00.000-08:00

For those that have never taken this test, do it! It's pretty cool. It's an old video but it amazed me for the first time.

Side note: I got all my classes for Skyline, 4 classes 14 units, I actually had 5 but I'm thinking about dropping my Sociology class.. Not really sure yet.

→ GOLDEN STATE WARRIORS 2010-2011

2010-11-05T22:02:00.001-07:00

Here goes my thoughts on the Golden State Warriors this season, definitely different. Our offseason moves have been huge and it's seems to be making us a better team... for once. New front office, new coach, and 8 new players. First I want to commend Nellie for his time with the Warriors, everyone saying he was a bad coach needs to think again. He was great, things just did not work out. At first I did not approve of the trade to acquire David Lee at all but thinking about it in the summer it was indeed a really good move. Moving 3 injured players for an All Star? Decent decent. I just wished we would have signed back Chris Hunter and Anthony Tolliver.

Anyways, opening night was really dope. It was a up and down roller coaster with our offense leading the way (Monta shooting over 70% tying is Career high on points). But seeing these past few games our defense is actually present on the roll sheet. Just watched the Utah Jazz game go down and I have never seen Warriors cause so many 24 shot clock violations, Keith Smart is really emphasizing defense and I love it. Steals and blocks are happening, and thats exactly what we need to go with our gambling offense. Currently 4-1 but undefeated at home with 4 wins, hopefully we can keep that ratio. But reality is we won't but I just wish we can prove something to the league that we are no longer D-Leaguers and we can actually play some decent ball to earn respect.

Coach - Keith Smart - Doing a pretty good job, loving the defense the Warriors are focusing on. Seeing some creative plays to get easy jump shots.

Starting 5:
Curry - PG - Doing absolutely amazing, averaging 20.5 pts, 2.0 rebs, 8.5 ast. Kid Curry is a key player for our team as we are pretty much bulding our franchise around the deserved ROY.. Side note, he suffered an ankle injury said to be minor. I want to see Curry throughout the next 77 games.
Monta - G - This offseason Ellis has went through some sort of epiphany, he is now a changed man. His relationship with Curry is no longer awkward, and his leadership skills are shining on the court. I feel the chemistry is building as Monta's positive vibes are bringing the team together. No old news, Ellis is still a scoring machine as he healthy and relentless when driving to the rack. His sharing IQ has been shown as he is passing more and getting people wide open shots.
Wright - SF - Dorrell Wright has always been a good player, as he was a shadow in his seasons with the Miami Heat playing garbage time. This year is his blow out year and he's been one hell of a pick up filling in our SF position. His avgs are 20.5 pts, 5.5 rbs, 1.5 asts, Wright known for his defense has surprisingly shocked the world as his 3 pts are deadly and his offense is sturdy. Loving the acquisition.
Lee - PF - A new player to the squad and he is picking up where he left off last year in New York, his offense has decreased but his rebounds are still up there as this factor is what we lacked all last season. Lee's IQ is great and his love for the game is something to take notice of. His leadership is great, seeing him holding back Monta from talking more smack to the ref was just lovely. Hoping for him to step up on defense to build a defensive presence in the key as it will be helpful for our upcoming season.
Biedrins - C - A player I personally lost hope in but has been persuading me to keep believing. I was actually told that last year was just terrible because of injuries and this year he will be back to his unstoppable left hand hook. I'm seeing him be a bit more aggressive but honest, Andris' IQ for the game is low. Defense is terrible, and he attracts fouls like no other. But I definitely believe he can improve, just grab boards and I think we'll be on good terms Beans.

Bench:
R. Williams - Slow start, hoping for a good game to spark his season. Really good guy and I want him to do good.
R. Carney - Defensive player lacking the offensive side of the game. Great defender but not totally confident on him taking shots, prove me wrong.
D. Ganzuric - This guy.. not the best player but he is somewhat a defensive presence when on the floor. Not really coordinate but he's filling in the spot well.
B. Wright - Needs to really step up and earn his minutes, I want to see him succeed also but he really needs to work hard. I still believe his talent can bring something to the table.
V. Radmanovic - Has to be consistent on his 3's and play smart, I'm seeing sloppy plays from him but he can be a decent if he's comfortable on the court.
J. Lin - Fan favorite, but I doubt he will be getting much time this season. So fans please do not bag on Keith Smart on not playing him.. There is a reason for his bench sitting. I feel Lin is a great player but is not ready for the NBA. He's just not comfortable on the court.
E. Udoh - Possibly coming back in January, hearing good things about him being a hardworker and his desire to help the team. His work ethnic as he loves the team and his rehabbing faster than stated.
C. Bell - a guard that can work hard but isn't all that great, just a fill in slot for the dubs. 3 point shooter but is scrappy which is always a good thing.
J. Adrien - a big guy that has yet to prove much but he was chosen from other players from the preseason team so he must be decent. What I know his he is a rebounder and someone that is good at boxing out.
L. Amundson - I actually like Lous, a big hustle player that plays his heart out every possession can't wait to see what he brings to the table after his injury.

That's about it, I really want to see some killer pick and rolls from Steph and Dave but haven't seen that yet. Definitely excited for this season, I'm hoping for a 45-37 season. As good as we look right now, it may be possible!

#GSWarriors!

→ EG/ PAST MUSIC SET 2

2010-11-02T00:19:00.001-07:00

Straight nasty..

Diggy Simmons ft. Mishon - Take Me As I Am

Wiz Khalifa - Radio

Mr. Lif - The Possibilities

→ 2010 MLB WORLD SERIES CHAMPS!

2010-11-01T23:06:00.000-07:00

Everything seemed so surreal, watching this journey of the underdogs San Francisco Giants strive to get into the playoffs trailing the Padres most of September. Then coming to the postseason where every sport analysis chose the opponent to win but us Giants shocked the world. Beating the Braves 3-1 in NLDS, destroying Phillie's outstanding pitchers with the help of Cody Ross the Boss, and coming to Texas as runner ups and straight murking them was... incredible. The feeling was crazy! Everywhere you went in the bay area, you'd see people having Giants attire on. Black and Orange everywhere! It brought a great spirit to San Francisco and it was well deserved after waiting 56 years for another ring. Torture indeed.

This series against the Texas Rangers were due to our pitchers/bullpen; they were phenomenal... I don't know one night they were off. Tim Lincecum in Game 1 and 5 lived up to his name "The Freak"; he killed it with 10 K's in game 5, Matt Cain was superb in Game 2 (9-0) as he did not allow an earned run, Game 3 Jonathan Sanchez pitched decent but the early runs got into his head which resulted in our only loss, Game 4 Madison Bumgarner the rook pitched another shut out (4-0) to embarrass the fans at Arlington. But you'd have to thank Edgar Renteria the frog for being so clutch in the World Series, thank goodness for Bruce Bochy's lineups. Without a doubt this was a team effort, everybody contributed to get here and get things done. The reaction of the players were so uplifting, the team chemistry was something to be proud of. All the hugging, jumping around and champagne popping during the ceremonies made me so happy to be a fan. Excuse my language but #FUCKYEAH #SFGIANTS #WORLDSERIESCHAMPS #THEFREAK

There's so much more to say! But forget it, you guys get the deal! We won in the World Series! Go Giants!

→ WORLD SERIES: GIANTS VS RANGERS

2010-10-25T00:53:00.000-07:00

You know what that means.. Brian Wilson with another save!

Only happy thoughts, celebration #FUCKYEAH!

To the World Series vs the Texas Rangers; SF Stand up!

That game was a freaking thriller, from the torture in the very first inning where 2 runs were scored, to J. Sanchez beef with Chase Utley (which ignited the pussy Phillie's bench to come onto the field... like really was that necessary? -__-), to scoring two runs to tie the game, to UUUUUU-RIBE solo run, to having the Freak pitch in the 8th, to B-Weez teasing the fans with a walk/hit and a final full count; but at last... the San Francisco Giants fans can say we're heading to the World Series! AHH LETS GET IT!

→ PRESEASON

2010-10-23T13:25:00.000-07:00

Goodness I am psyched for this NBA Season! Can't wait to watch the Warriors and the rookies play. Teams have changed up so much and that brings so much excitement. Although the NBA and David Stern softened up with technicals, I still hope to see some hard fought games.. Its pretty pathetic but hopefully its not as bad as a clip I saw where a attempt to get a charge was called a technical foul -__-

Anyways, opening night is coming up! I got tickets, and I'm about to lose my voice. Hopefully ^___^V Theres a problem though... Its the same day as Giants and Rangers World Series game, I wish I could attend both!

→ LEGITLY DRAINED

2010-10-22T22:38:00.000-07:00

Aghhhhh! Past week has probably been my craziest week in college, work wise. I've been staying up til about 4am to study for midterms and do term papers... It's so tiring, and my body seems weak but maybe I'm just being an itch. Who knows.. LOL! But I try to look at it in a optimistic way and tell myself this is beneficial and things will be easier in life later on.

Anyways, hmm exactly a week ago was my birthday and TY for all the greets and all the presents. I spent it with the best people and I enjoyed that day very much! SC/S&G/J3D.

There were some other pictures but I'm kind of too lazy to upload...

This weekend is going to be non stop work, or at least thats what I intend to do... I have a term paper outline for journalism, do/study math hw and test, english rough draft for essay and book project, and presentation for ART.

This is what I expected of college, but at least I'm keeping my word with Andrew and myself to actually work hard. It's good to see my goal closer.

"Begins with ends in mind.."

→ NLCS, HERE THE SFGIANTS COME!

2010-10-11T20:54:00.001-07:00

There was a time in the not too distant past when they said the road to a World Series championship went through Atlanta. The Giants knew that road. They happily traversed it in 2002, and now they have done so again.

The Giants came from behind twice Monday night to beat the Braves 3-2 and win their Division Series three games to one, then celebrated on the same field and inside the same bubbly-soaked clubhouse as they did eight years ago, when they won their only other Division Series.

All four games this year were decided by one run.

The Giants advance to their fifth National League Championship Series and will face the Philadelphia Phillies, who will enter as favorites because they have home-field advantage, not to mention the last two NL pennants.

Game 1 in Philadelphia on Saturday should pit Tim Lincecum and Roy Halladay in what would be the most anticipated matchup of this postseason. They both pitched shutouts in their only Division Series starts. Lincecum struck out 14. Halladay threw a no-hitter.

The Giants scored the decisive run Monday on a bases-loaded RBI single in the seventh inning by Cody Ross, who had four big hits in a series that did not feature a lot of scoring.

Rookie Madison Bumgarner once again pitched like a man with years more experience as he held Atlanta to two runs in six innings, good enough to beat 37-year-old postseason master Derek Lowe. There can be little doubt Bumgarner earned a spot in the NLCS rotation.

Santiago Casilla relieved Bumgarner and got five outs. He should have had six, but shortstop Edgar Renteria, who entered in a double-switch, dropped a soft liner by Alex Gonzalez. Renteria threw out Gonzalez, but Brian McCann should have been doubled off first because he ran on the play.

With McCann on second, Javier Lopez relieved Casilla and struck out Jason Heyward to end the eighth. Wilson, as he did in the division-clincher against San Diego, pitched a scoreless ninth to get the party started.

At 21 years and 71 days old, Bumgarner became the youngest Giant ever to pitch in a postseason game and the youngest pitcher on any team to start a postseason game since 20-year-old Bret Saberhagen in Game 2 of the 1984 American League Championship Series, for Kansas City.

Even in allowing the game's first run, in the third inning, Bumgarner was poised. He did not allow leadoff singles by Omar Infante and Matt Diaz to become a big inning even with the 3-4-5 hitters up next. Infante scored on a McCann sacrifice fly, but the rookie walked off the mound down only 1-0. That proved critical.

The Giants were down 2-1 on McCann's solo homer in the sixth when they took the lead against Lowe with a seventh-inning rally about as small as it could get. They sandwiched walks to Aubrey Huff and Pat Burrell around a Buster Posey infield hit to load the bases.

Lowe walked Burrell after Bobby Cox visited the mound. It looked as though Lowe made a case to stay in. Cox acceded in what was his final big decision as a manager.

Cox summoned sidewinder Peter Moylan to face Juan Uribe, who was 1-for-13 in the series when he hit a ball into the hole fielded by the shortstop Gonzalez. The fielder spun and threw to second, but umpire Ed Hickox ruled the throw pulled Infante off the bag. Everyone was safe, and Huff scored the tying run.

Pinch-hitter Aaron Rowand struck out against the new pitcher, lefty Jonny Venters, but Ross hit pay dirt for the second time in the game when he grounded a single to left that scored Posey. Burrell was thrown out trying to score behind him, but the Giants took a 3-2 lead.

With one out in the sixth, Atlanta leading 1-0 and Lowe throwing a no-hitter, Ross lined a homer into the left-field seats to tie the game, the third of the four big hits he had in the series.

The tie did not last one pitch in the bottom of the sixth. McCann lined Bumgarner's hanging offspeed offering just over the right-field wall to restore Atlanta's lead at 2-1.

Manager Bruce Bochy was concerned before the game about Lowe, who allowed one run in Game 1 only to lose to an epic performance by Lincecum.

"The guy we're facing today, he's tough," Bochy said. "He's been throwing the ball well. We've seen him a few times and he's still tough."

Lowe retired the Giants 1-2-3 to start the game, the first time they went down in order in the first inning since Jhoulys Chacin struck out the side in Colorado on Sept. 24.

- sf chronicle

Damn... it feels great to be a Giants fan. Torture indeed, but it feels so goooood! Cody Ross really pulled through in the NLDSeries, esp in game 4! Bullpen did well, hopefully we keep this up for the Phillies! Every tweet and status seems to be about the Giants. I'm definitely excited.. sucks how the tickets are so expensive for Postseason. I'm glad I caught more than a couple games in the regular season though! #FeartheBeard #OrangeOctober #SFGiants! #FUCKYEAH! Lets goooooooooooo! Pop that champagne!

→ FOUR

2010-10-05T15:53:00.000-07:00

Drake - I Get Lonely Too

No emo-ish, haha but Drakes not that bad of a singer.. enjoyable.

→ DROOL

2010-10-03T16:07:00.000-07:00

Nike Footscape Motion Black/White Summit:

Size 8.5 please? ;)

→ KC

2010-09-25T01:58:00.000-07:00

"I be high then I be low, I be low then I be high
Its like a battle knife to a gun fight, No need to worry this the story of my life"
- Kid Cudi

→ NEUTRAL FEELING

2010-09-20T22:51:00.000-07:00

Feeling pretty good but not really, You ever get that feeling? You seem to be happy with how things are going but not fully satisfied? Like you need something really good to happen, like a spark. Yeah I'm at that point right now.

Well I'm FINALLY finished with my It's Bigger Than Hip Hop by M.K Asante essay! After about... 10 revisions (No joke) It's done! The book itself was a good read, a lot of interesting things that I learned and also powerful quotes. (I love good quotes) Anyways, I spent days at the library and nights at the kitchen table working on this essay so I better come up with a decent grade... I'm definitely not use to this kind f work, so this was kind of an accomplishment.

After completing this essay, I hoped to just chill! But my classes are giving me term papers, and mid terms to study/work on.. not the business.

Also since I'm on the topic of college, I don't have to pay tuition! Now I'm asking my mom if I can keep part of the FAFSA money which isn't much to buy a couple stuff. I need some Nike ID's.. and Nike Free and just other clothing!

Black/ Utilize Orange

Got into baseball this season, I kinda love it! Go Giants!

→ MORAGA STEPS

2010-09-13T19:20:00.000-07:00

"So, when it's all said and done, more has been said than done..."

→ 09/12/2010

2010-09-12T17:15:00.001-07:00

"WE LAUGHED AND WE TALKED AND WE TALKED AND WE LAUGHED."

→ GOT YOUR BACK

2010-09-06T19:02:00.000-07:00

Not a new song, probably even a song you feel that is overplayed on the radio. But lately I've been feeling this song a lot.. I guess sometimes you just wish you had someone like this, like a significant other to say this to you.

→ AGHHH/PAST MUSIC SET 1

2010-09-01T21:35:00.001-07:00

Exhausted as heck from homework...... English class is getting the best of me, so frustrating. Oh well.. Tomorrow's about to be hot.

Past Music:
Zion I ft. K.Flay - Coastin'

Drake ft. CP - The Fly Scientist

J. Cole - Hold It Down
J. Cole - Show Me Something

→ COLLEGE IS BITTERSWEET

2010-08-29T15:12:00.000-07:00

So I've been in school for 2 weeks and its pretty chill so far. I got all my classes, and my schedule is looking like.... M/W/F: 910-1235 and T/TH: 1010-1225. It's funny how in the summer I woke up around 12ish and now its the time I get out of school. I'm definitely happy with my schedule, but the classes are pretty hard! Well some.. My Journalism class is really fun, and the teacher is so motivated; the work is decent. My Math class is easy since I took Advance Algebra 2 times already in HS -__- So nothing is too new. My English class is probably where my problem arises! He's a really down teacher but the workload is crazy... and the level of difficulty is something I can't handle =/ And my last class is Art, no homework so far but the stuff they talk about in class I cant really comprehend.. but hopefully thatll change!

Besides College at Skyline..

Some "Crocs" well theyre something like them.. kinda dope IMO

One of Ellen's gift Darrell and I stayed up to work on

Chilled at the pool in the AM, my toes! haha

Bay Street!

View outside of the room

I also got a new computer! Thanks to my brother. Definitely faster then my previous junk!

→ AND SO IT BEGINS..

2010-08-18T01:33:00.000-07:00

First day of Fall semester of Skyline supposedly starts in 7 hrs for me, and I'm still up.. I do not know why! I actually I do.. It's because I can't sleep due to my horrible sleeping pattern I had in the summer. I'm pretty stoked for my first day but that feeling is right now. I'm not sure if that feeling will last when I wake up in a couple hours with a lack of sleep :/ Anyways I'm planning to work hard in College, and not waste my time cheating and slacking off. Keep me on track... I'll appreciate it. Let's succeed! Goodnight... Hopefully -__-

→ CRAMMING

2010-08-14T13:54:00.000-07:00

Been kinda hectic coming into my first year of College, It's kinda scary.. I think I would feel more prepared if my schedule was SET. But its not.. I thought it was but it had some problems =/ Anyways, for my Fall semester I'm taking MATH120/JOUR100/ENG846/ART115! The last two classes aren't set in stone I still need to get my access code since I'm on the waitlist =/ But the positive thing is that I'm waitlisted at 3rd for English and 2nd for Art. So it's actually not too bad! I'm actually going to order books today.. An estimate of 300 is what the price for all my books cost, hopefully the annoying process of Financial Aid pays off! -__- I got 3 more days of summer, and then reality hits! I'm really trying to get ish done in this 'chapter of my book' I'm going to get a routine going on for studying/doing hw and get use to it. No more HS habits....

Anyways so here are some pictures!

I went to Pluto's the other week with my friend! And I was totally satisfied with what I ordered. The curly fries were LEGIT! As well as my tri tip sandwhich of course! haha. Coke was amazing too... =)

Went to Downtown the other day to hoping get some attire for Ellen's cotilion thang, but that didnt happen! No sizes were available or in stock.. It sucked since I saw a day of spending money on things I wanted and having that bittersweet feeling thinking if it was worth the money but nope! I also wanted sweaters from H&M but they didnt have the colors.. Aghh! So anyways after Yan and Frank decided they wanted to get their girls Minions from Despicable Me from claw machines at Metreon! So we went. Long story short, we spent a good amount of time there!

And in the end.... two happy campers!

The other day was my Dad's bday so I decided to make him a card and get em a pair of shorts for his cruise! I love him!

Oh you fancy huh?

→ SHES A CUTIE

2010-08-07T23:09:00.000-07:00

→ KEEP WALKING

2010-08-03T22:37:00.000-07:00

Well I was talking to one of my closest friends the other day, the problem of moving on was the topic. Kind of has been for the past year.. haha I've gave the same advice for probably 12 months and couldn't think of anymore. But then something I said stuck out that night and we both realized it. Actually got a "wow" from my friend from being shocked.

"It's the presence, live life, stop looking back. Look ahead, love and embrace it."

Basically live life to the fullest, don't let the past hold you back. As cliche as it sounds, its called the 'past' for a reason.. So be happy, enjoy what's put infront of you and make it work. Play the hands right and laugh its easy!

→ JAYSHAWN CHAMPION - SUPER STAR

2010-08-02T00:26:00.000-07:00

→ WORD

2010-07-28T22:55:00.000-07:00

"You don't miss the water til' the well is dry."

Came across this quote tonight and it just reminds me to not take anything for granted: Friends, family, opportunities are things we should all cherish before they're gone.

→ FRAGMENT X INCASE

2010-07-24T14:36:00.001-07:00

Aghhh.. I'm getting bored of my iPhone case! So I'm planning to get either one of these, I actually want them all! They all look so simple and sick.. But i'll probably end up getting one of the black ones. Hmm.. Black or matte black? =/

I know these came out awhile ago, but still! haha.

→ CALIFORNIA PALACE OF THE LEGION OF HONOR

2010-07-21T23:08:00.000-07:00

is where I went today, It was to take pictures for LN's 18th! Today I thought went pretty smooth, well maybe not smooth but it was quite fun. Some stuff pissed me off earlier 'but its whatever, i aint trippin' The place was a really nice and a perfect place to take pictures. We ended up doing a lot of that and had a successful pyramid, kinda excited to see how it comes out.

After that people split and everyone ended up at Yan's place deciding where to eat. Like always it took forever! And I got kinda impatient so I decided to just go to 24 and eat pho by myself since I wasnt hungry at the time.

PS.. I need to watch INCEPTION ASAP!!!

BTW, click the picture for another PANO.. it looks kinda weird since I was rushing and its not like a landscape but just a square-ish structure thang.

→ 07/16/10: SFGIANTS VS NYMETS

2010-07-18T18:40:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to the Giants vs Mets game with some of my volleyball friends + Pammy and Maisie! It was my first time going to a Giants game and I was pretty excited. Once I got to AT&T Park I was eager to grab my seat and enjoy the game. Although it was freezing cold, the atmosphere was great. The weather I thought made the game all the better! The lights were bright and the sky was dark and overall it was a really good experience. Also what made it so good was they won, 1-0.

During the game there were incidents that made the game even more better! A couple people got pulled out because of alcohol and another incident where a guy got kicked out for choking somebody. Didn't see the actual fight but once the police escorted them out everyone started cheering, So did I =)

This might be the highlight of that day but a group of maybe 9 guys were together and whenever they saw anyone with a Mets attire they would clown on them with, "WHATS THE MATTER WITH THAT-GUYYY?!.... HES A BUM!!" And it would repeat. Towards the 5th inning, some dude popped up with a LA Dodgers cap WTF right? So he was in for an embarrassing moment. So that group started the chant on him AND everyone came together and bashed on him haha. There were probably 100+ people looking at him since the crowd infront of us turned around also.

If you click the 1st pic of the Giants game, its actually a Panoramic I did on my iPhone.

Also I forgot.. the night ended off with fireworks. At first we were unsure if we wanted to watch it but Pammy and Maisie did so we waited. After about 8 minutes of waiting we decided to screw it, we were gonna head home. While walking away, all the LIGHTS SHUT OFF. And we knew fireworks were gonna come on! I have about 2 videos of it, it was pretty coool. I guess it makes up for the fireworks I DIDNT see on July 4th! haha.

→ GROSS

2010-07-17T16:25:00.000-07:00

After balling on Thursday at Ocean View Rec we were tired as crap and also hungry. Chilled in the car for a bit, and thought of a place to eat at. We ALL agreed to In N Out which was surprising and off we went! Btw.. thats Yan's injured elbow. That nig always gets injured after playing ball..

→ DESPICABLE ME.....

2010-07-11T00:17:00.000-07:00

WASSS SUHHHHHWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET! It was a really cute movie, I liked it a lot since I enjoy working with kids. It reminded me of Summer Day Camp and all the kids I spent my previous summers with. It was a bit sad but its fine. Agnes, Edith and Margo were the kids that changed Gru! The story line was really cute, haha Agnes was the cutest! Okaaay... do you get it now? THE MOVIE WAS CUTE!! haha.... So go watch it if you havent! A brief summary would be, theres 3 orphans that got adopted by a 'villian' named Gru.. his initial plan was for them were to have them help him steal the shrink ray from another villain Victor/Vector (haha) to steal the moon by delivering robotic cookies and nothing else! But later on Gru gets sucked in by the kids cuteness! And basically has a big turn in his life. I'd give it a... 9.2/10!

I HAD TO! SHES A CUTIE.......

ANYWAYS SO AFTER the movie, it was crazy! Haha we were on our way back to the parking lot where we spotted a power voltage mishap. It was.. sparking and ish and we were easily amused! So the teenagers we are, we stayed there and "Oooo & Ahhhed" Eventually people walking past us, decided to stop and look too. (I guess they were amazed also ;]) So I decided to record it incase it got interesting! Sooo here it is:

Excuse the poor commentary! =)

→ SUMMER WEBCAM NIGHTS!

2010-07-08T12:58:00.000-07:00

We were dying laughing at each other's mug face so we didnt get it!

Til this time, mugshots!

Success, so we pound-ed-ed it

Brady bunch?

Appreciation. Connection. Communication.

→ SF REVERSE GRAFFITI PROJECT

2010-07-04T01:00:00.000-07:00

"On April 14, 2008 in San Francisco, and English "reverse graffiti" artist and a critically acclaimed documentary filmaker came together while the city slept, to create an enviromentally friendly work of art and a film about a philosophy of clean"

San Francisco’s Broadway tunnel is a highly traveled thoroughfare in the heart of the city. Over 20,000 cars, trucks, and motorized vehicles pass through it per day. Its walls are caked with dirt and soot, and lined with patches of paint covered graffiti from days gone by. It set the perfect canvas to create a beautiful work of art showcasing the talents of reverse graffiti artist “Moose”, and the power of Green Worksplant based cleaner.

http://www.reversegraffitiproject.com/
SECONDARY LINK
FOR INFO, CLICK ABOVE^

Thought this was pretty cool, very random I just came across it tonight. Just shuffling around the internet and this popped up. SFCity IS grimey. Looking at more and more of their art, I'm realizing this stuff is really dope. Also benefits the earth!

→ LOL x TWILIGHT

2010-07-01T00:13:00.000-07:00

Brother showed me this, this was mad funny in my opinion.

Also watched Eclipse of The Twilight Saga today with some of my friends. We were suppose to watch Grown Ups but then we came late and the next show was in an hour and we were already in the theaters and didnt wanna wait doing nothing. Thanks JCHOW... AGAIN! for hooking it up... I feel hella bad, but much appreciated bruhthaaa. Anyways the movie was pretty good despite the fact that we were in the first row. I actually thought the 2 hour movie was short, I guess I was just sucked in and really into it. I'd give the movie 8.6/10, gave a higher grading since there were a couple of hunnies behind me. Hahaha!!

Also I finally satisfied my FROYO craving! Damn it.. forgot to take a picture =/ Anyways I had my regular: Original tart with strawberry mango and mochi with some gummy worms. I'm actually thinking of getting something different next time around.. ehh maybe! I hate change.

Today's Menu was pretty delicious!

Started off with, Little Lucca's Fire Roasted Steak Ceaser Sandwich.
Then to Teaway for, Milk Tea Tap + a free Popcorn Chicken
Ended with, Frozen Yogurt!

I'm out-tah!

→ KBIV

2010-06-28T21:58:00.001-07:00

Just lost another CCU game, 0-3 right now. Sucks but I guess I'm not surprised since we lost a lot of starters/players this year. Anyways.. on the bright side, all 3 games I won the tip offs ^__^ Tweaked my ankle today... I tied these too loose.

→ POWER AND GRACE

2010-06-24T13:21:00.000-07:00

Stayed up last night watching videos on Youtube, I decided to look up Scottie Pippen. Damn slipped my mind that this 6ft8 power forward was just that good. Definitely Jordan did not do it alone, Scottie would score 20+ and was a defensive stopper to help the Bulls win 6 rings. Controlling the ball coast to coast he glided to amaze everyone.

To think of it.. I can't think of any player that reminds me of Scottie Pippen in the league right now. A great 3 point shooter but had the fundamentals inside the key to post up and score so easily. Scottie Pippen #33, you were a BEAST.

→ YUMMM

2010-06-20T18:32:00.000-07:00

the other day at crepe temptations with my brother/mom

- tiramisu with strawberry and vanilla icecream
- mango with strawberry and vanilla icecream

Happy Fathers day to all btw!

→ ER

2010-06-19T13:24:00.000-07:00

Hold it down, if you need to holla at me / Don't hesitate to call it ain't a problem I can be there I'd ride for you, lie for you / I know you'd do the same, I will die for you / So hold me down, when the times is hard, I'd be around / So hold me down and it don't matter how far I'll be around / Yea, Ill hold you down

- J. Cole

→ RON ARTEST GAME 7 POST GAME INTERVIEW LOL!

2010-06-18T14:07:00.000-07:00

LOLOLOL! This was freaking hilarious.. There's so much to quote from Ron Artest. I really think this guy was buzzed or he was just HELLA happy! He didnt even answer the questions straight forward, he went around them. Enjoy!

This guy is a comedian.

- *Puts Champagne bottle down* "David might not like this"
- "I dont know what else to say man, I dont know, I can beatbox!"
- "I'm just so excited, I'm going to the club after" x 10

→ 2010 ALHS GRADUATION

2010-06-05T11:00:00.000-07:00

Agh it feels so good to be chillin' during the summer, yet so bittersweet! I believe the word 'bittersweet' always tags along with the word 'graduation' Unless you really HATE school. But for me I will miss a lot of faces of ALHS and a lot of small things that happens during high school. These are stuff that I will not be able to encounter during college. No longer will I be walking through halls and shaking and giving dabs to all my friends. I will not be hanging by my locker with a couple friends to just loiter and talk about life. I will not be able to have a 2 hour lunch and be late to class trying to find an entrance but having it locked; therefore banging on the window when someone passes by. I now can not crack jokes in class and fall asleep in front of teachers. No longer will we be in groups after school chillin' with each other outside the counseling office. A lot more.. but seriously, thinking about all this, sucks! High school was grand, many regrets to what I did NOT do in HS but still I loved it.. College is a big step in life, and there are going to be so many changes. The difference between Highschool and College is so big. It goes from being spoonfed and babied to independence and get your own crap done. I'm not too sure if I'm ready but like I said before, I just have to get it done.

Graduation was a few days ago, I felt really happy to see all my classmates graduate on stage. And I laughed to see statuses talking about not being Seniors anymore, but being Alumni of c/o 2010. How much better does that sound? haha! I was happy after to see all the families/friends that supported the class, taking pictures with everyone in the end was the best. My cheeks were so tired from smiling but I'm glad I stayed.

I thank all my friends and my family for coming, I REALLY appreciated it!

Here are some pictures... although theyre all up on FB, here are some.

I love all these guys, I didnt want to clutter this whole blog with pictures but if you'd like to see more pictures just click HERE Btw, the pictures are click-able for a bigger picture.

Time to enjoy summer!

Show me something, cause I'm trynna find something, I'm lost can you show me something, huh I'm lost can you show me something

Show Me Something - J. Cole Click!

→ CLOSER TO THE END

2010-05-29T21:08:00.000-07:00

It's about that time of the year where we all depart each other.. Graduation day is in 4 days and that is just crazy. I can not grasp that idea, it definitely is a huge smack. No more highschool, college is on its way.. This year has been great, so many good things happened in my last year of HS. I can truly say Senior year was the BEST of all 4 years of Abraham Lincoln HS.

I thank each and every one of my friends that accompanied me this year.

But I have gotten closer to a couple of the nigs this year. Bryan Yan, Larry Pho, Darrell Nguyen, Frank Zhang, Ellen Cruz. Everyday meeting up at the counseling office, having nothing to do but still having fun. Jokes, Disses, and serious talks.. It all happened. These guys kept me laughing all the time, and I can really say it was great chilling with you guys this year. All the inside jokes and nicknames we had were funny as heck. Sorry for always clowning on you guys, it was always out of love. Yan, you know 'Whats Hann-nin' you my boy. I got you through whatever.. Thanks for all the talks we had, I hope our friendship continually grows. My nig Laaarry though, ugly nig.. Haha! You a pimp but you know I got love for you. Physio was real real cool with you, and remember whenev you need me we can talk about anythaaang. Drizzle, hella wet all the time.... SIKE! haha! You need some better taste in Girls, Girls, Girls, haha jkjk! I'm glad we're going to Skyline together and that we got a lot closer this year. I can always talk to you about anything, ty! Frank bruh, hella got no game. Hah! I'm playing.. Its been really good chillin' at your house and just cracking jokes all day with you. Too bad you had 7th period... or were you just at the 'Y' working out? Smh. And of course LN Cruz! 'OMG' Ellen you always up a smile on my face. seriously! You are soo adorable and cute, and the things you say just make my day. Whenever you say something cute, I dont have anything to do but laugh and smile. You know whats hann-nin!!

BBH. Until I get an H.. haha jk!

Other than this group, I still have had my brothers from Middle School. Friends for 7 years, and things for us are still great. We have our problems but hey, it's not gonna stop us from being what we are.. Brothers. 3's @ 31 DUHGREEEZ.

Eric my man, things may have been different for a bit but honestly I know for a fact that we still got each other no matter what happens. Ups and Downs, you were there for me with all my problems in the past, And I thank you! You are the realest. You are going to SC this fall, and I will not see you as much in the Summer because of SDC but we will kick back and enjoy some J. Cole/John Mayor soon. Just like old times on a Thursday after lunch ;) 'One Love'

Andrew, sup bluhd. Hah, this year has been amazing. What I cherished about me and you were our constant talks in Buchanans. We realized so much about ourselves through each other. You are always the guy I can tell things to, and whatever it was, you either support me or direct me in the right path. College is hitting us, and we both realized together that this easy part of our life called 'High School' is ending and reality is coming. We prepared ourselves with goals and standards, all we need is our determination. I thank you for all that you have given me whether it be your time or advice. I love you, foreal foreal.

One more guy I got ALOT ALOT closer to would be my boy Calvin Auyueng. It was just your birthday yesterday and my card covered everything but yeah, I love you a lot. I can always have a blast with you but also get into a really deep conversation with which most people arent comfortable with. But I just wanted to tell you I really cherish the strong friendship/bond that we built. LV x Chanel though!

-RSRL.

→ HERE WE COME

2010-05-05T23:09:00.000-07:00

Just won playoffs against GAL at home 3-0. It was a prettty fun game, yes on the bench.. Haha but I guess it's fine. Since we won that means we'll be facing Lowell for championships. This friday 5/7/10 at Lincoln! 4ish! Other then that today I just played deuces with Calvin, Larry, Kris, and phillip during 5th period.

The reason I decided to blog was to post a picture of my dinner, it was so cool, I didn't touch it at all before this picture! Doesn't it look like a bear? Haha!

I also did an essay about my purpose in life for English tonight...

→ MY BOYZZZZZZZZ

2010-05-02T00:36:00.000-07:00

First off, thanks a lot guys! I swear this picture is actually suppose to be just a smiling pic. But knowing us.. We're a bunch of clowns, seriously we look ridiculous. (Johnson, Calvin...., and Mikey!) Haha but being jokes is why this season has been so fun. Not like we don't work hard, its just making the best out of it. Every weekday and sometimes weekends playing volleyball with each other for about 4 months has been tiring but definitely fun and worth while. Of course theres always complaints and arguments but hey we gotta look past those. This team is actually one of my biggest highlights of Senior Year, I wish everyone could experience what I did with these guys. You'll be in laughter, no joke.. Anyways lets close out this season with not one but two more wins. Focus up.

Btw.. I still hate the headbands -__- You guys look... -__- no comment.

→ TAYLOR GANG OR DIE

2010-04-29T11:04:00.000-07:00

Star testing week, and its hella chill. Havent done much but sleeping in just feels great. Somehow I woke up at 8 today though -__- But I was able to fall back asleep. This weeks weathers been so bi polar haha, its hella sunny now! And I wanna go to the beach or go swim at Sava kinda bad.. Since its been awhile. As lame as this sounds, I wanna wear my swimming trunks!

Anyways I'm trying to get my ish done for college, Took my placement test now I just need to meet with my counselor and register for classes. College college college.. Its going to be such a different life. I'm not even sure if I'm up for it yet, but hey what can i do right? Gotta man up.

Until then, I still have about 5 weeks of HS left. Which is gonna feel like 2 weeks since we have rehearsals and finals which is gonna suck.. I have about 2 more weeks of volleyball also, lets hope we win champs! Its possible, definitely possible.

Thats about it going on, same stuff for me.. Nothing really new, but I'm not bummed about it.

^___^V peace

Special shout out to my home skillet Johnson Naked Mole Rat Sunshine J Li. You feel me!? hahahahaha wsup bro. Are you happy now........................... nigga. You a funny azz nig, you a joke. I'm out stoooops.

→ UH HUH?!

2010-04-16T22:36:00.000-07:00

SUP SUP, its been soo long since I've been on this thing that I couldn't remember my password so I had to reset it -__- I've always wanted to update this thing but I'd just get lazy every time.

I decided.. I'll just update through pictures from my iphone! but then excuse the quality of the pictures.. I never understood why pictures coming off iPhones look so bad on computers..

Golden Gate Bridge

Mom's birthday on 3/31, I got her some flowers. This was actually 1 of the 2 vases the flowers filled up.

Haha we arrived early to Boreal and this car was alone in the parking lot

After tearing up the slopes!

Saw this guy while taking the M during a rainy morning all dressed up, but you know SF weather it turned out sunny in 2 hours! haha

I'm def satisfied about life.

→ IPHONE!

2010-03-11T20:16:00.000-08:00

Well the best thing thats happened kinda is getting my iPhone! The story is.. I got it off a mexican for 2 bills, then the vibration didnt work so I set up an appointment with Apple Store hoping they'd give me a new one, and they did! So I actually got a brand new iPhone 3GS for 2 bills, thanks to the suhweet warranty! Anyways I'm currently getting it jailbroken, so I cant wait til everything is settled in... like seriously I cant wait! Thinking of getting a couple cases from Incase, still deciding..

And....

Other then the iPhone business, Tomorrow we will be playing Balboa for our first regular season game! Its really exciting to see how we do in our own division, although Balboa is known to be the favored team! Hopefully we can do good and play hard.. I really want to win. IF you read this by tonight, come out at support! @ Lincoln 430 S.Gym. =)

Been kind of slacking on school, now picking it back up! Trying to really get higher then 3.33..... but attendance is hurting me hard in some of my classes. But hey, at least I realize it!

And man.. PROM! is straight up the talk.. but kind of decided I'm not going.. I know I should but eghh.. whatev!

→ DAVIS!

2010-01-30T19:47:00.000-08:00

Well I spent my Friday night & Saturday at my friend's dorm in Davis. This was kind of a gathering and it was really fun! It was part of 4B Donald Erick, my church leader Allan, and my good friend David. I really haven't chilled with these guys in a hella long time and it just felt great to spend the day/night with them. It was definitely like old times where we just did whatever on the spot and talked it up 'til the AMs.

We drove down there which took about ~1+ hour due to traffic, once we got there we went to Arden Fair mall to shop around then went to eat pho at 10. All of us were starving and ordered a Extra Large, it was huge! and cheap. The only complaint I have was the Hoi Sin Sauce, it was whaaaaaaaaack! Tasted like rubber..

(Forgot to take a pic before I started eating =/ Haha )

Then we went to eat Froyo and Popcorn chicken, the chicken was huge! Not like the all powder ones I normally get..

The next morning/afternoon we decided to get a Sushi Buffet! I normally don't eat that much sushi since its aiiiigggght, but this time it was pretty darn good. And I had a coke! Which I was craving all trip.

!!

→ DAY 3

2010-01-23T18:03:00.000-08:00

of Volleyball try outs! Its been deadly thursday/friday/saturday! I seriously am out of shape.. but hopefully I'll get use to this pain, or not use to it but it'll go away. Happy I made first cuts, and doing my best to make the second. Truthfully, I thought I had this under control. How hard could it be right? But ehh.. I'm still really crappy with my bumps and hits! When I get it down, ill be a happy camper. Until then, hardwork is what's going to happen. But I swear.. I struggle to get off my chair and walk up stairs... (even MUNI bus front steps!) Its pathetic. But all this work pays off! Hopefully.. And btw, I love the atmosphere of the team.. really chill and everyones down to help the new guy (ME!) HAHA.

You'll be hearing my sob stories a lot! =(

→ SHRUGS!

2010-01-19T22:34:00.000-08:00

This months been pretty chill so far. Theres been so many birthdays! I still have to treat some of them out for lunch.. But lets just say Happy birthday to: Allan K. Tong (1/13) , Davy Cheung (1/15), Darrell Nguyen (1/16). Hope you guys enjoyed it.

Anyways.. its a New Year! And It got started a bit rough, but its smoothin' out. Classes stayed the same, and I'm gonna try to maintain my grades.. Its been slipping and I gotta show my parents at least one more GPA! So apps and stuff is almost due for me.. (Skyline/CSM) And I don't really want to deal with it but I guess this is where I have to start doing crap by myself cus whos gonna do it for me right?

- Financial Aid! (FASFA)
- Apply online to Skyline
- STILL NEED TO GET SENIOR PORTRAITS!
- Find my brothers Cap and Gown

Aghhh... HELP! Senior year is flying by so fast. Just trying to get by without anything bad. Lets have a fun one c/o '10!

Lets talk about my four day weekend, no big highlight cept Darrell's House Party. It was really fun, and there were about 60+ people there. Good thing everyone fit and nothing WRONG happen that we couldn't control. Met a lot of new people which is always a good thing, so hoping this year will be filled with parties.

Oh Oh and my brother came back from his trip to Hong Kong, and he got me a lot of stuff. Thanks again! It felt like the holidayssssssss.

Been chillin' with B.yan and D lately and its been fun, eating McDonalds often, today was probably our 4th time in 5 days. Its terrible.. but terribly TASTY! I don't really know if that made sense but it did to me, soo... CHYEAH.

I'm just aiming for a chill and fun year! 2010 treat me well! =)

LATA.

→ CMON MAN!

2009-12-29T22:30:00.000-08:00

Wow I find this hilarious! Some headlines or explanations:

- 'Florida State Linemen Takes A Play Off'
- 'Why can’t I find a quote from Sanders about the play or even an analysis anywhere on the web? I can’t even come up with a hypothetical explanation for this play. Either the dude was on drugs or he had to take a massive shit and was afraid he’d lose it if he made any sudden movements. I’ve been there.'

Anyways a bit of an update.. Today went to the airport to drop my brother off since he'll be in HK for the next 3 weeks, Then ate with my dad at Fat Wongs, Then play ball at OV with B.Yan, Brian Lucass, Darrell, and Chris. After that we munched on McDonalds.. Its about the 3rd straight day with MCKYDEES. Pretty unhealthy.. Thats it, nothing big!

I really do wish you the best, hope you find the right guy. Hopefully he'll treat you right, show you your someone special, and do you some good. Just things you never seen in me, I guess. I apologize for my wrong doings, the fights we had, and the stress/frustration that came along with it all. I'm sorry for the fact that I never lived up to your expectations and could not be someone you needed/wanted. I guess it's really time to let go, but hey, FUCK everything in your head right now, and know that I did/will care for you always.

- Guy who wasn't good enough.

→ ICESKATING @ UNION SQUARE

2009-12-26T22:38:00.000-08:00

Finally had a double date with my BFF Alex 'Bruce' Chang! ahaha. Me, Grace and him and Shelly went to Downtown at about 6 to go ice skate. Unfortunately the only available spot was 8 - 10pm, so we decided to go to Buckhorn to eat but found out it was closed so we walked back up to Blondes to enjoy some fries and 'PEE-ZAHH'. We went back to Union Square around 730 to be 30 minutes early expecting no line, but to our surprise the line was already 40 deep. We were pretty shocked but as we came closer to the entrance we were happy and nothing really mattered. We got our blades and put our stuff in the locker rentals. And we were off!

Clockwise: Me, Grace, Shelly, Alex

Quick picture with my girl

Skills like Michelle Kwan son!

Christmas Tree pose!

Straight Cheeeezin'