I can not wait until I'm able to transfer out of Skyline, more importantly, get out of the city. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love the city of San Francisco and I can not see myself living anywhere else but I just need a change in environment. This change I hope for, will help me experience the world and just live life and learn.
In San Francisco, it's lovely; all my friends are here, I'm familiar with places, and I have a loving family, but the problem is (as bad as it sounds) they care way too much. I wouldn't want them to care any less but I'm living under so many restrictions where I feel like I can't enjoy myself without the thought of my mom worrying or being mad if I come home late. And when I say late, it not even that late... I understand my past wasn't the best but I've been doing so much better in numerous areas in my life that I feel they should understand enough to let me just go out. I've stopped smoking, I've been more than on top of my education and spending time with the family is a routine. I'm overall a decent child. Can I live?
Honestly, I'm not doing anything wrong and I simply want to be with my friends. There's nothing wrong with that, being around friends is a retreat from the school stress that comes along with expectations my parent set. I focus on school enough, I need time to ease out and just relax. I've come to mature and see things in different perspective. I understand that I'm still young, there's bad people out there, and that she's still on the fence about the whole marijuana issue but I'm strong willed with a level head so I know better. I know what's good for me and what I can handle, I'm alright Mom. I'm smart and determined to be successful but now, I just need to live a little, that's all I'm asking for..
I'm such a family oriented person, where I eat dinner with my family every night and have weekend brunches. I joke around all day with them, and the bond is there since it's pretty much us 4 that we have. Why is it that you can't let me do my thing for one night? You know I'm still the same person, and will pick family over anything. I'm not going to turn bad, I will be the same respectful person I've grown up to be. You've raised me wonderfully, but I think it's time for you to let go and just see how I'll do in life. I'm not even asking you to let go of me completely, I just need a little room to breathe. Can I live?
Friday, April 29, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
→ CHECK OFF
As the 2011 Spring Semester comes to an end, I'm stressing my a** off... I wasn't fully aware of how fast the semester came and gone, first day of class... then BAM, I'm thinking about Finals. My hands are going to be filled and breathing won't be as easy for the next month but I know for a fact I can do this. Research papers pose a problem for me, so I'm going to have to spend more time on them. With that and the million other assignments/tests I have, it feels that there is not sufficient time in a day... I can not wait until this is all over with, but summer won't be the easiest or chillest. I do hope it'll be filled with memories but my plans to do SDC and night summer school will occupy most of my time. Currently, I am overwhelmed with what I have ahead of me but as I check off this list, I hope my burden weighs less. This check off list isn't exaggerated nor is it all, just a jist of what I need to do. I'm looking forward to days where I can simply relax and lie down and breathe... I'm growing up, expectations and life seems to get more serious, so messing around isn't an option though I wish it was.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
→ JAMIE ZHU
Jamie is such a cutie, I finally got to meet her. Took awhile since both parties were busy but I was so happy that day! It was only Stanley with her and I got a call later from Karen that it was the first time it was just Stanley and Jamie. She got freaked out because he missed her call, I found that soooo funny/cute. I'm so proud of both of them.. All that happened in the relationship, and in the end they're both happy, it's amazing. And more importantly blessed with an adorable healthy baby. She makes the cutest noise, and when I stood her up that was when she started smiling A LOT! But I couldn't take a picture since I had to hold her! Sall yellow though.. I can't wait to see her grow up, I'm definitely going to try to help them out in whatever way I can. Freaking family. One Love.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
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