→ WINDING DOWN

Deadline for the TAG program is coming down, and these past few days, I've been finding a lot of information that isn't making my chances of transferring out likely...

Problem 1... Heard you have to fulfill all your major pre-reqs by Spring 2012; but in my case I have to take Calc 2 in the Summer 2012 

Problem 2... I totaled at 26 credits by Summer 2011, but the requirement is 30. I didn't know Trig wasn't UC transferable. Although I am capable of getting 60 credits by the end of Spring 2012

Problem 3... There aren't much Business Administration majors for UC's, only Riverside and Irvine have this exact major, I'm now looking at Business Economics... But I really determined to get into UCI for Business Administration

Problem 4... Something I'm really not proud of, my UC transferable classes accumulative grade is a 2.96, sigh.

Problem 5... I'm hoping I can transfer out regularly if I'm not eligible for TAG, time to strive harder than ever.

And what frustrates me the most is that my counselor said everything would be fine, and that I'm doing just fine. I have an appointment with him in two days, and the application is due on the 30th. I hope everything is settled by my appointment so I can really see what my future holds. It's so hard to deal with this, I feel lost and confused, and I wish I wasn't...

This is my life, my future, and not having total assurance on something so important isn't the best feeling and is completely bothering me. What can I do, who can I turn to. Whoever I talk to won't solve my problems, so as of now, I'm counting on myself to get things done...

I want to breathe..

→ FRUSTRATION

Here's my rant, prepare for my annoying complaints... To whoever reading, you can stop here.

Where to start, I guess, with what is occupying the majority of my life: School. My everyday routine consists of hours of school, and hours of school work which totals at A LOT OF hours.. I've zeroed in on my goals, and I'm determined to finish Skyline in exactly 2 years total. One big wall is stopping, and this "wall" is the transfer program (TAG) that pretty much guarantees me a spot in the UC I desire. BUT, the TAG program changed their rules which says a person can only tag onto one school (previous years, as many as you wanted) AND most of all, UCI excluded my major. So now I'm totally frustrated with what my future beholds, and things are just complicated.... The only thing I can do is, do even better in school so I can apply to UCI without tag and get in....

I became anti-social with focusing on my school work, but if you see my goals and where I'm headed, you should understand.

Other than school, nothings been up. Doing my own things here and there, but I'm satisfied. Simple person, living in a simple life. Not much to explain. Boring to you? Possibly, to me? Nope.

→ FOUR BROTHERS

4 Brothers… Despite the different lives we live and the age difference, we still honestly care and love each other no matter what comes our way. The past was the best, but even though we aren’t together everyday like how it was before, the time we do spend with each other brings us back like nothing has changed. I love these guys so much, and they’ve been in my life for a majority of it. (Dfang since ‘98 / Steez since ‘01 / Midget since ‘05) The time, how long they’ve been there for me isn’t even something I’m proud of, it’s the impact that they’ve had on me.

These are my childhood buddies, and it’s gratifying to know it’s not merely that.. there is more to it, there are MORE memories to come.. Growing up, I was always the youngest and I would just remember admiring these brothers of mine. Sometimes for the wrong reason, but hey, they were cool to me. I remember being in the shoe hype with them, co jps, “jays” and going down to DT just for the heck of it. I remember just causing trouble during whatever fellowship or retreat we had, or to lounge around during those events excluding everyone else because we were simply having fun needing no interruptions. I remember going over to Steez house to play Counter Strike, awp map every 5 deaths. Then we all were in the same HS, me as a freshmen, stanley as a soph, donald as a junior, and erick who was hardly around as a senior. A whole family at school, I felt secured with them.

4Brothers <3

→ SELFLESS

The last post actually sparked this next post. As the title says, "Selfless", I really enjoy this word. Why? Because it's such an amazing trait a person can have. I believe a person to be selfless is admirable, how does a person worry/think about things or people around them before themselves? Is it possible? I believe so but very hard to actually be. I don't think being selfless is an act, it's lifestyle, that's how you are. And if you think about it, who in your life is selfless? Are you selfless? I truly do not believe I am selfless, I believe I am selfish. In life it's human to want the best, to make money for yourself, have the best food in your plate, simply gratify your own self. But these people who are genuinely selfless, look out for other peoples need before their own, we need more of these people in this world.


If I can possibly attain this when I grow up, I believe it's an necessary quality when I have a family of my own. I hope to subconsciously look for my kid/wife/friends needs before mine, whether it be money, food, or time... I want to put my loved ones first.

To six people who truly I believe put other peoples need before others is my parents, my brother, Allan Tong, David Zhu, and Erick Chang. Some of the most important people in my life, are always thinking of others and just caring. I love you all...

→ POST SDC UPDATE

Some ask me what am I doing lately? I just tell them "Man, I'm just chilling, sleeping in and whenever I get the chance to, I chill some more" These past few weeks after Day Camp, I thought I'd feel a little more relaxed but it doesn't seem to be the case when you're looking at midterms and papers to do for school every night/day. Basically I wake up to read or work on papers for class, then school itself, then to come home to a nice microwaved dinner.

I can not wait until the end of August 4th, that's if you couldn't guess the last day of night school and I have about 2 weeks to spend before the Fall 2011 semester starts. Not much of a summer, but I can't complain since I put it upon myself to transfer in one more year.

Planning a Santa Cruz trip with some friends, and hopefully this will be a time where I can truly breathe and enjoy what is in front of me. Good company and what I hope to be beautiful weather.

Who I definitely thinks deserves a mention, is my parents. I honestly don't show as much appreciation as they deserve.. My mom this summer has dealt with my easily irritated self, but never gave up or just stopped. She's prepared lunch and dinner for me basically every day of the summer and I barely see her. The time I do see her, she's heating up my food or I'm being a total brat and giving her attitude. Although I'm tired, it's easily forgotten that my parents also woke up at 7am to work 9 hours, so I think the whole world revolves around me. I just want to thank God for blessing me with such great, caring, selfless parents.

Thank you.