→ LONG HAUL

And you start to see the people who you know undoubtedly will be right beside you in the next decade. Those who know that I, myself, is busy pursuing my goal to succeed, but willing to accept the fact that I won't be able to pay them attention. These people I want to thank for the support and understanding. Friendships really do come and go, but those that don't, are really the ones you'd like to thank once in awhile.

Growing up I'm starting to see the people who I want to keep and those who I want to keep my distance from. No disrespect but the fact that I don't prioritize partying or drugs anymore, I start to separate myself from people that might distract me from reaching my true potential. I understand at my age it's a period to party and have fun, but I always find myself thinking about the long run, the long haul, and what I want to achieve. These thoughts motivate me to keep pushing. I'm happy I have a drive, without determination and a goal, life wouldn't have any substance to it.

I constantly ask myself, what am I living for? What am I doing? I hate realizing that sometimes I'm answering myself with "I don't know". Very soon I will know my EXACT purpose and be content with life.

→ IF I DIE YOUNG

(blog to come; studying as of now. Panicking, stressing, breathing. Last part was essential, let's see how tmrw goes)

→ PAST/PRESENT

Coming out of highschool I had a goal that would set my standards high. I knew to meet this goal I'd have to work hard and try in school. My initial goal was to get into UCI, but now that I understand what I want to do, it has changed to SDSU.

Now I'm here studying in the AMs every night trying to get material down for Accounting and Precalc, as well as writing essays for English. I find myself focusing on school work more than anything right now, it's become a habit, a very good habit. I believe this habit is what it takes to succeed, to really buckle down and do work.

Before, when I was in high school I'd come home and simply waste my night with watching TV or the computer. Not once would I even have a thought for schoolwork since, I simply did not care. My mom would see this and tell me to do my homework, it became natural for me to tell her I didn't have any. As would any Asian parent say, she told me to "Study" I would grunt and just walk away. If I wouldn't do homework, I definitely was not going to study..

Things changed, a new me arrived. And now that I'm up every night studying, my mom tells me to work on it tomorrow or to sleep. It's ironic, well not ironic, it's just funny to see how things has changed and flipped. All I do is complain about how much work I have, and really, it's not thaaat much I'm sure compared to States/Universities, but it's enough to make me stressed.

I just hope all this pays off, and prepares me for the future.

Keep striving to what you believe is good for you, let nothing hinder your progress. Enjoy and progress in life.

→ DEATH

Death. Death is something I am afraid of. Death I could not explain very much about. This topic actually came from a tumblr post about a teenage girl dying from a car accident. I searched her up and saw a couple YouTube videos of how awesome of a girl she was, though amateur videos, they had a good cause and very much touched the viewers.

I realize myself, I have not gone through the pain of knowing someone dearly to me passing away. Occasional thoughts of one of my family members leaving brings me to tears. The actual occurrence of this will devastate me and I'm just not sure how I will handle it. Death is inevitable and I believe one can not prepare for the emotional distraught it brings when a love one leaves. I fear the pain that comes along it and I can't imagine how broken down I'd be. I guess I've been blessed to not have someone close to me pass away, but when the time comes, what will I do? What is there to do?

This thought urges me to cherish the people I have around, but there's so much a person can do. There is never enough to say to a person, to make sure you have said all of the right last words. Death is so sudden, if you think about it, it can happen at any moment and that's the scary thing. Nobody can prevent death, in a sense, death controls us. My Christian side of me would say God takes care of anything, but at times, I question and I lose faith in what really is true. I just hope I don't lose complete faith in my Creator.

Especially in this generation, our world is filled with evil. There are people who are completely messed up in the head whom value nothing. These are the people who I fear, those who have no morals, no purpose, and who don't value life. To whoever may stumbled upon this place, I urge you to keep peace and love one another, do something nice, who knows what a smile, greeting, compliment can do....






"And I will fear no evil, For my God is with me, And if my God is with me,Whom then shall I fear? Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go, Through the calm and through the storm. Oh no, You never let go, In every high and every low. Oh no, You never let go ,Lord, You never let go of me"

Matt Redman - You Never Let Go 

→ BOY MEETS WORLD

 

Been watching Boy Meets World for the past couple weeks on YouTube and reliving such a great part of my childhood. Re-watching it, I'm now aware of the morals and values that are taught in almost every single episodes; whether it is friendship, respect, or simply to keep striving to be your absolute best. Each character plays a significant roll in the show: Mr. Fuhh fuhh FEENY not only is a teacher but a life mentor, Shawn being a trouble maker but still a genuine best friend, and Topanga an example of true love. The show relates ourselves to Cory, who is a average kid just like me and you, who goes through obstacles which knocks him down. But he is not alone, alongside Cory is his family and friends every step of the way. And can I just say? Cory's parents (especially the father) are examples of good parenting. I enjoy every bit of this show because it's just a classic, you enjoy and laugh, but you still realize how important school, friends, and life is. We don't see many shows in this generation that venture out to teach viewers how to respect people or go walk down the right path, it's all about ratings now. There's so much to say, but basically... I am in love with Boy Meets World!