→ SOMEBODY SPECIAL

AM Kidd - Somebody Special

And you're the type of girl I'd like to give too much, till it's enough.
Please tell me I'm close to your type
Not cute but I know what's right
Not sweet but I know what's nice
and I could make you laugh and smile all night

→ CONTEMPLATE..

"Life is a product of our decisions, not our conditions"

→ PURPOSE

Purpose. I found myself pondering the question; what is my purpose in life? What are my values, and what did I really want out of things. I believe my purpose is to make my parents proud. What I do in life seems to be for them, to make them have a thought of "yup, that's my son" Doing good in school, being respectful, being on my best behavior is to keep my mom and dad smiling.. I don't have a problem with it, it's more of my motivation. I live for them, that's all I can offer back for all that they have done for me.

Another look on "purpose", I've been thinking about the things I do and ask if the things I do actually have purpose? Lately I don't feel content with life, somethig seems to be missing. And it's purpose, I want to achieve something and feel accomplishment or I want the feeling of real contentness. At this point in life, it's just not there. The feeling is dull, it's not that I'm bored of life but I feel like I need something genuine and real to come into my life..

→ RANT

Be real, stop frontin', that'd be my advice. People being something they're not, pushing an image that's a false representation of what they really are. It's fake. Quit frontin'.. Be you, don't be loved for some fake project you up for people. How can you be satisfied with that? Don't put up a front to be cool, to be accepted, it's just pathetic.


.. Just my little rant, not saying I'm perfect, never nearly perfect. I just accept my nature. But seriously, stop acting.. Be yourself.

→ MMMMMMM

Christmas is near, the signs? Freezing weather, frosty windows, and Christmas songs! This time of the year is an exception to turn on the radio. 96.5 KOIT, lite rock, less talk. Ooo... don't you love the voice of the lady that says that?

Winterbreak is coming up but before celebrating, we have to go through dreadful final exams.. Counting down the days left of school(6!!), I'm already thinking of the hopefully chill break! Starting off with a snowboarding trip to Tahoe is definitely going to put me in the mood for Christmas. Snow and good company! What more can I ask for?

Was thinking about going to a retreat, but I might just not be up for that. But I've been going to church a lot more, been spending time with Andrew and Allan and its definitely a pleasure. Thank God for this blessed life.

Workload has been the same, but I'm totally trying to finish off this semester strong. Can't wait to see my Spring classmates though, meeting new people is always fun. I'm kind of looking too ahead.. I tend to think a lot, A LOT.