Sunday, June 17, 2012

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As a kid I've always been TAUGHT to fight and work hard for the things I want. But I also have LEARNED along the way to not put out the effort when the benefits aren't to my gain. More specifically in relationships. I have been in two relationships in the past where I'd put more than 100% into the relationship but this exact effort was not shown on the other end. I personally believe I was not cared for, and this may be the reason I shy myself away from really getting into something serious with a girl. 

Now I'm in a situation where I'm stuck between going with what I've been taught or what I've learned. Do I put my pride aside and do everything to make this work OR do I learn from my past and take a step back. I think I've always fought for the person I enjoyed being with because I cared. When I invest in someone, I take pride in investing the whole way rather than half-assing it. So it'll be new to step back and wait for the other to show me she's worth, but change is never a bad thing.

I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do because of the things you have said to me, I want things to work out. But you've seem to have given up so easily when things get a little rocky and that's just not very convincing...