→ 3/31

Happy Birthday to my lovely Mom! This women is someone I care for so much. I admit I do not appreciate and cherish as much as I should, but I know for a fact she knows I love her. I can say she's the most important person in my life, after all she did bring me into this world. Making her happy is something I will always try my best to do. She cares for me like no other and the way I respond when I'm irritated or mad haunts me at times. She deserves none of that, and at the same time she takes it all in and still loves me unconditionally. If anything happened to her, I'd be a complete wreck... But there's no need to bring such negative thoughts into this. If I find a girl even close to my mom, I'd be set. I hope in the near future I can make her more proud, I felt like I haven't lived up to her expectations.. And until that day, I will keep striving to make my mom happy. I guess.. I just.. wanted to say Happy Birthday! <3

→ GROWING APART (TO GET CLOSER)

So to what’s important in my life, I apologize, I promise to stay faithful, focus and sanctify
We all get distracted; the question is would you bounce back, or bounce backwards.
Would you not know how to act, or take actions. It's just part of life
If your vision is impaired, you probably lose it all tonight

I’m tryin’ to vision life, how to get it right, but my visions so blurry
Trying to slow it down, faithful to the ground, but we’re always in a hurry, now
And if I could, make this world spin a little slower then I would
And we could grow a little closer, I think we’re getting a little closer, I think we’re getting closer...

- Kendrick Lamar ft. Jhene Aiko - Growing Apart (To Get Closer)

→ DEAR 3828,

What are words, If you really don't mean them
When you say them, What are words
If they're only for good times, Then they don't
When it's love, Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

→ 5

Presence of you being by my side felt so right, the timing was wrong, but not a mistake. "No" never came out of my mouth without a stutter in the mind, realization of missing out on your life I could not handle. Reached a peak of happiness I never experienced but glad it was with you by my side. Doubted the future but decided to live in the present, and us both could not comprehend the feelings and bond that came to be. Reminisced the past tearing at the thought of not having you by my side again, I did not want to miss an opportunity but my mind knew what was best. Talking to you til' morning was never regretted because I knew it was worth it, you're worth it. Our journey's end isn't in sight, so that's why I'm here waiting, because I know in the future you'll still be here by my side....

→ UPDATE

Past weeks I've actually been genuinely happy, but at the same time it was like a roller coaster. Bittersweet life, but I'm fine with it. Built and invested on something that became so rich. There's so much to say but I don't feel the need to put it out here.

Other than that, school's been slow. Life's been chill. Music seems to keep me sane. And everything is just fine.