Monday, June 13, 2011

→ GSW/M8 RANT

Honestly, Mark Jackson coming in might not have been the best idea the Warriors could have made. I much rather see Lawrence Frank as the coach since he focuses on defense. Anyways, trade talks about M8 is storming Yahoo! headlines and I for one, despise it. I’m definitely a Monta lover/fan, he takes over the game and provides such a thorough game from jump shots, spectacular drive ins, steals, to down dirty hustle plays. I understand Monta takes bad shots at times and is an undersized two guard but you lose much more than that if he’s traded. I don’t see Ellis lacking defense, it’s size, he is an undersized two guard facing opponents such as Kobe and Dwade. Monta has matured into a leader and the team has embraced his leadership. The team chemistry is great and mixing the starting 5 could mess up the chem. I can’t imagine anyone else having the ball at crunch time and taking over the game besides Ellis, no one who we’re potentially looking at can take over the came like Monta.
I don’t believe the problem is Monta for the Warriors, it’s the 1. Coaching (which we sort of, hopefully, fixed) 2. The lack of a true center 3. A bench that can show up night in and night out. If we are able to pick up a decent center during this year’s draft (which doesn’t seem too likely) we could be a lot better. Couple weeks after the end of the season, I read an article on Biedrin’s building his confidence rather than basketball skills during the off season. Andris….. I had high hopes for a comeback last year, but he hasn’t shown up for me. If he can play like he did before his injury, we’d have a better shot at “something”.. Third, the bench: We need more depth in the rotation, I wouldn’t mind wiping off half the bench and picking up new players. I could live without a lot of them due to their lack of consistency and just straight up scrub-ness. I don’t wholesomely blame the bench players for their inconsistency, Keith Smart was blind and could not utilize his players. Our starters player 40+ minutes throughout the whole season when Smart could have played our bench. Smart put out line ups where no offense could possibly be ran, we looked bad. No disrespect, I think Smart was a great and genuine guy but not a great Head Coach.
With that said, I’m hoping for roster changes in our bench and the center position. The Iggy for Monta trade is fair, but I’m not a big fan of Iggy. His shot and offense isn’t consistent which means he will not be the primary guy to go to. His size and length will benefit us for defense but I much prefer Monta.
Excited for next season, let’s try to aim for playoffs… I just want the Warriors wearing the “WE BELIEVE” tee’s instead of Memphis.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

→ RETREATING, RETREATED

Past few days I've been in Lake Tahoe with a group of counselors from my church's day camp that I'll be working for during the summer. This retreat came to me as a surprise since I found out last minute that I'll be leaving for 3 days to a cabin. With that said, I normally enjoy retreats but don't necessarily get anything from them (which is my fault since I don't follow through). Going into this retreat, I had no expectations except a delicious buffet and to joke around like I normally do. So I guess you can say with little expectation, my expectations were met and exceeded, I had a blast. The atmosphere was amazing, everyone was smiling and enjoying their getaway as much as possible...... TOGETHER. The chemistry of each group and the whole staff seemed to be clicking in different ways such as being serious with work/God but being able to crack jokes together. I learned how to play Monopoly Deal and did 3am pranks which were the reasons of being sleep deprived. 

I think more importantly were the conversations I had during this retreat. Yes, I laughed constantly but the conversations MADE the retreat for me. I contemplated a lot about my spiritual life and relationship with my Father. Struggling together, my brother Erick and I talked to each other about our perspectives on praying, reading the bible and temptations. Being so similar to each other, we shared similar outlooks and questions and felt the need to attain answers. Sadly we did not turn to God for answers, rather to someone who I feel is an angel sent by God to guide me and my life.... Allan. My mind was stuck on this question I had for myself which was "What happens when I doubt more than I trust?" And this question could possibly summarize my current spiritual life. I'm having more doubts then faith, it's not something I'm proud of but more of an obstacle I'm struggling with. I doubt myself with doing the "spiritual" ish as well as doubting the possibly of getting into heaven because of these such deeds. I came to Allan for answers and assistance, and our talk helped a lot. 

With my lifestyle and values, I didn't feel guilty because of what Allan said. I asked him was it wrong to not do the "church stuff" and told him the fact that even if I tried I'd probably wouldn't be able to do it. He told me it's not wrong and that God is not looking for deeds instead the key to heaven's gate revolves around the genuine relationship you have with God. I then thought, well I do feel I have a real relationship with God but maybe it's not genuine since if it was, I'd be WANTING to read the word and praying daily. So that was my problem but I knew I wouldn't be doing the "church stuff" since I had no motivation and just wasn't my priority. Every time I read the Bible I feel like I know the material already since I've been in church my whole life being spoon fed bible verses, parables, and ideas. So due to the repetitive scene I got tired and bored, but Allan helped me realize that I haven't really experienced anything. Ultimately he didn't force me to read the Bible but instead advised me to just relax and allow the time to come for me to experience Him. I felt at ease knowing God does not totally push me away despite the lifestyle I live, rather waits on me and when the time comes He'll embrace me. I wondered why Allan told me to just live life instead of pushing me to do something about my spiritual life if I realized that something was wrong. I came to the conclusion that if I really want a relationship with God, I'd pursue it myself; but to force a relationship with Him it wouldn't be sincere nor genuine. With that said, I guess all I can say is I won't be forcing something that's not there, I'll simply wait until the time comes.