→ MOST BITTERSWEET WEEKEND EVER

These past days have been amazing, I didn't want any of the nights to end. I simply wished there were more hours in a day just because of you. But it ended, things ended and that was the only bitter part. I feel like I gained the whole world this weekend, but also lost it in a matter of seconds. But am I mad, upset, bitter? Absolutely not, just sad. Catching up, reminiscing never gets old with you.. The bond we share is indescribable, and it is truly all God's blessing. You are a blessing, the way I smile towards you is something else. We're something else. My heart sinks or does SOMETHING, when I think about you leaving and being out of arms reach. You are not gone, you're just in the next chapter.. And I can't wait til I flipped to that page and simply cherish every word, every emotion, every feeling that is presented to me. We've grown up so much, and I'm glad it was in a sense together. This friendship will not change over time, I honestly do not think it is possible. But I am honestly happy that you are happy, I wouldn't want to see you any other way.. that is why the stop starts here, it's best for you. But until then..


Hold it down.

→ THIS

I turn my phone on silent I need to get away
put on J Cole's warm up and let it play
I thank God for blessing me with life every day
and to my peoples who've gone we'll meet at heavens gate
I've been sellin' haze but I'm sure there's better ways
that I can get my pay I just need to get straight
Nothin' left to say now it's time for action
No more bullshit no more relaxin'

-Mac Miller

→ HMM

Lately, lately... I honestly have not been doing much or going out. But I enjoy the stillness of being in my own world. I'm secluding myself from my friends, and to the people who actually care... I apologize. It's a phase I believe, I'm finding it more appealing to spend my night or day at the gym or at home watching basketball. It's not a productive cycle and I'm aware of it, but for now, it'll do. Catching up with friends or even keeping the friendship going passes my mind. I'm contradicting myself with my previous post about valuing friendships, don't get me wrong, I still do. I'm at fault when my actions don't justify my words but just bare with me...

You would think this absence from the world was due to school but that's not the case, school is school. Just trying to get with the flow of my classes and succeed. I'm actually not enjoying my classes as much as last semester due to the lack of consistency in good teachers Skyline offers.. But I will keep striving.

With all that said, I'm still myself. Just not acting like it.