→ LONG HAUL

And you start to see the people who you know undoubtedly will be right beside you in the next decade. Those who know that I, myself, is busy pursuing my goal to succeed, but willing to accept the fact that I won't be able to pay them attention. These people I want to thank for the support and understanding. Friendships really do come and go, but those that don't, are really the ones you'd like to thank once in awhile.

Growing up I'm starting to see the people who I want to keep and those who I want to keep my distance from. No disrespect but the fact that I don't prioritize partying or drugs anymore, I start to separate myself from people that might distract me from reaching my true potential. I understand at my age it's a period to party and have fun, but I always find myself thinking about the long run, the long haul, and what I want to achieve. These thoughts motivate me to keep pushing. I'm happy I have a drive, without determination and a goal, life wouldn't have any substance to it.

I constantly ask myself, what am I living for? What am I doing? I hate realizing that sometimes I'm answering myself with "I don't know". Very soon I will know my EXACT purpose and be content with life.

→ IF I DIE YOUNG

(blog to come; studying as of now. Panicking, stressing, breathing. Last part was essential, let's see how tmrw goes)

→ PAST/PRESENT

Coming out of highschool I had a goal that would set my standards high. I knew to meet this goal I'd have to work hard and try in school. My initial goal was to get into UCI, but now that I understand what I want to do, it has changed to SDSU.

Now I'm here studying in the AMs every night trying to get material down for Accounting and Precalc, as well as writing essays for English. I find myself focusing on school work more than anything right now, it's become a habit, a very good habit. I believe this habit is what it takes to succeed, to really buckle down and do work.

Before, when I was in high school I'd come home and simply waste my night with watching TV or the computer. Not once would I even have a thought for schoolwork since, I simply did not care. My mom would see this and tell me to do my homework, it became natural for me to tell her I didn't have any. As would any Asian parent say, she told me to "Study" I would grunt and just walk away. If I wouldn't do homework, I definitely was not going to study..

Things changed, a new me arrived. And now that I'm up every night studying, my mom tells me to work on it tomorrow or to sleep. It's ironic, well not ironic, it's just funny to see how things has changed and flipped. All I do is complain about how much work I have, and really, it's not thaaat much I'm sure compared to States/Universities, but it's enough to make me stressed.

I just hope all this pays off, and prepares me for the future.

Keep striving to what you believe is good for you, let nothing hinder your progress. Enjoy and progress in life.